chaoschuckler
Unfit for World
- Feb 4, 2026
- 72
I'm a 21-year-old guy. The last time I watched porn was probably when I was around 14. Most of it honestly disgusts me because the plots usually involve taking advantage of someone or forcing them, and I really don't like that. I did enjoy Korean porn comics and some RPG adult games though.
I've never really conscioussly masturbated. I do have a sex drive and I like when I get erections, and I've kind of masturbated and ejaculated during sleep a few times from intense dreams, but I've never felt the need to do anything about it on purpose. Maybe I'm demisexual or something, I'm not sure. I've also never actually seen what my penis looks like under the foreskin because I kind of treat it like it's super sensitive and needs to be handled carefully. I even sometimes personify it a bit, like apologizing if I accidentally hurt it.
I do feel some pain when I try to pull back the foreskin. Also, I sometimes have this weird thought—like if there was a way to die during sex, I'd want that. Like finding a partner, being intimate, and then just dying while hugging each other. I know it's unrealistic and I'm not actually trying to make that happen, it's just something that crosses my mind.
Lately, I've been feeling kind of numb and not as sharp mentally. My communication skills feel like they're getting worse too. Because of my poor social skills and lack of emotional connection over the past few years, it'll be hard for me to attract girls.
And even if I somehow did, I feel like it would be awkward sexually. I probably wouldn't know what to do and might just expect them to take the lead, even with something basic like pulling back my foreskin. Anyway, yeah… I just wanted to get that off my chest.
I've never really conscioussly masturbated. I do have a sex drive and I like when I get erections, and I've kind of masturbated and ejaculated during sleep a few times from intense dreams, but I've never felt the need to do anything about it on purpose. Maybe I'm demisexual or something, I'm not sure. I've also never actually seen what my penis looks like under the foreskin because I kind of treat it like it's super sensitive and needs to be handled carefully. I even sometimes personify it a bit, like apologizing if I accidentally hurt it.
I do feel some pain when I try to pull back the foreskin. Also, I sometimes have this weird thought—like if there was a way to die during sex, I'd want that. Like finding a partner, being intimate, and then just dying while hugging each other. I know it's unrealistic and I'm not actually trying to make that happen, it's just something that crosses my mind.
Lately, I've been feeling kind of numb and not as sharp mentally. My communication skills feel like they're getting worse too. Because of my poor social skills and lack of emotional connection over the past few years, it'll be hard for me to attract girls.
And even if I somehow did, I feel like it would be awkward sexually. I probably wouldn't know what to do and might just expect them to take the lead, even with something basic like pulling back my foreskin. Anyway, yeah… I just wanted to get that off my chest.
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