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purrpetrator

purrpetrator

All my troubles on a burning pile.
Apr 9, 2026
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I've thought long and hard about this - whether I actually want to die or if I'm just dangerously impulsive. I thought about my loved ones who will be devastated from my passing. They will be losing a dear friend, a sibling, an uncle/aunt (I'm nonbinary, doesn't matter), and a child. The only reason I'm delaying my suicide is because I want to send my ex a parting gift, and give the rest of my friends one too. I want to have one last good chat with my childhood best friend before I decide to overdose.

I also still need to look for a place to overdose at. I could just do it at home, but I'm iffy on it because my siblings would have to see me lifeless. I really like nature and looking at the sky, though. I was thinking a flower field or going to a high rise building.

I am done with this life though. Nothing is worth living for, no matter how I view it.
 
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GT Darkarage

GT Darkarage

GT / always fear
Nov 17, 2018
203
I'm also considering end it this weekend. I also like nature. I live near a forest but I don't know how to reach the end of it without getting caught.

I'm here out at a park, had a failed job interview today but I don't really care.

Well this post is about you. I hope whatever you choose is right for you.
 
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Dandelion's

Dandelion's

Dumbass
May 24, 2026
43
Hope you find peace
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,680
I understand as for me existing could never be worth it, I hope you find peace.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,593
however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering ❤️‍🩹
 
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nosense-user

nosense-user

hanging myself on june 9 2026
May 19, 2026
30
Overdose doesnt work, you should consider another method
 
Dandelion's

Dandelion's

Dumbass
May 24, 2026
43
I have access to one of the deadliest opioids in the world. Thanks though.
If it's zenes or fent it's important to take an antiemetic with that opioids could make you vomit if you overdose.
 
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stepanch1k

stepanch1k

“It’s over buddy boyos”
May 26, 2026
26
Sad to see. But I wish you the best❤️‍🩹
 
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DaizyPusher

DaizyPusher

sleepy
Oct 9, 2022
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I've thought long and hard about this - whether I actually want to die or if I'm just dangerously impulsive. I thought about my loved ones who will be devastated from my passing. They will be losing a dear friend, a sibling, an uncle/aunt (I'm nonbinary, doesn't matter), and a child. The only reason I'm delaying my suicide is because I want to send my ex a parting gift, and give the rest of my friends one too. I want to have one last good chat with my childhood best friend before I decide to overdose.

I also still need to look for a place to overdose at. I could just do it at home, but I'm iffy on it because my siblings would have to see me lifeless. I really like nature and looking at the sky, though. I was thinking a flower field or going to a high rise building.

I am done with this life though. Nothing is worth living for, no matter how I view it.
i also think a flower field sounds nice too bad the one in my pfp isn't secluded
 
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purrpetrator

purrpetrator

All my troubles on a burning pile.
Apr 9, 2026
31
Thanks everyone for your kind words. Hoping that someday you guys will find peace as well, whether you are above the ground or under. Much love.
If it's zenes or fent it's important to take an antiemetic with that opioids could make you vomit if you overdose.
Interesting. I thought that with fent vomiting wouldn't matter since a lethal dose would've already been absorbed. Would Zofran work?
 
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RustedandWeathered

RustedandWeathered

Addicted to cutting myself.
May 7, 2026
20
I'm so sorry you have to feel so much pain, I wish you peace in your eternal rest.
 
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Jonathan Graham

Member
May 16, 2026
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I wish you all the best. I really hope you find the peace that you are searching for. Your very considerate because you dont want your siblings to see you dead. Just a suggestion, find a place thats really scenic when you do overdose. Goodluck 😉🙏
 
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