I want to go into the west already...

[Zzzzz]

I'm So tired of living. So tired of the constant stress, drama, boredom,pain. So tired of fighting to survive. I just want to be free of it all.I feel angry that I not only must live ...apparently, but I must live with significant unhappiness every day. I'm genuinely happy roughly 20% of the time on a good day. I cannot stand life as a constant battle against an invisible depression/misery. People say that if you do what you enjoy you'll be happy... this is not true for all. Depression can make people feel miserable even when they are doing something they usually enjoy. It can be insidious and enigmatic. Extremely difficult if not impossible to treat effectively .At least mine is. I'm still trying to recover. But I'm tired of this. I've been given several "second chances". I DON'T want anymore! I want to be very happy in life or be dead! One or the other! I'm tired of the struggle!

 

[Sleepdrifter]

Yeah me too. What is the point in hurting all the time. Maybe there were never any chances

 

[FuneralCry]

I am also tired of living, I understand. To me being alive feels so pointless, life is just suffering for the sake of it. I find it horrifying that life is even a thing in the first place. I envy those who are gone from this world. I wish you the best.

 

[LeavingEarly]

I am also tired of living, I understand. To me being alive feels so pointless, life is just suffering for the sake of it. I find it horrifying that life is even a thing in the first place. I envy those who are gone from this world. I wish you the best.

This is your 11,280 post. You must be a suicide expert reading all this content. I have so many questions.