I want to do 1 thing before I die

[TheHatedOne]

Actually wanted to do some more, but most of them are pretty much unachievable, especially in such a short time. There's still one thing that I could and would like to do, however, it will probably be not worth it. It sounds pathetic, but the thing I want to do is to message someone, a certain person. However I'm scared in engaging in interactions after my last experiences. But there's still time left so who knows... I'm unsure if I will do it.

 

[ikadasui]

Actually wanted to do some more, but most of them are pretty much unachievable, especially in such a short time. There's still one thing that I could and would like to do, however, it will probably be not worth it. It sounds pathetic, but the thing I want to do is to message someone, a certain person. However I'm scared in engaging in interactions after my last experiences. But there's still time left so who knows... I'm unsure if I will do it.

You may as well try. Worse case scenario is you get blocked, unless you're holding onto hope and don't want to risk it closing by sending that message I'm guessing?

 

[Crazy4u]

I wish you best of luck. It is definitely not pathetic

 

[TheHatedOne]

You may as well try. Worse case scenario is you get blocked, unless you're holding onto hope and don't want to risk it closing by sending that message I'm guessing?

The only thing I fear is failure, awkwardness or even more suffering or who knows what else. I got to such a low point that I get scared even for such a simple thing. Considering my recent experiences though... I'm an idiot.

 

[again_noidea]

Actually wanted to do some more, but most of them are pretty much unachievable, especially in such a short time. There's still one thing that I could and would like to do, however, it will probably be not worth it. It sounds pathetic, but the thing I want to do is to message someone, a certain person. However I'm scared in engaging in interactions after my last experiences. But there's still time left so who knows... I'm unsure if I will do it.

i know that feeling. Had it for years... and it was satisfying to send it at last.

 

[TheHatedOne]

i know that feeling. Had it for years... and it was satisfying to send it at last.

I bet it is. But knowing how stuff gets fucked up always when I interact with others... I don't think I will do it, after all why would even the wishes for before when I die would happen. I can't. I was just made for suffering and nothing else.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I resist the urge to contact my ex everyday most of the time. Its been almost two years and it just wouldnt stop. I let them go. Im even okay if they have somebody. I even want them to find somebody and not suffer alone like me. Im over all of that but I just can not stop missing them.

 

[again_noidea]

I bet it is. But knowing how stuff gets fucked up always when I interact with others... I don't think I will do it, after all why would even the wishes for before when I die would happen. I can't. I was just made for suffering and nothing else.

i wanted to say certain things. Well, i kind of hoped for an answer, but she decided against it. No answers for me. It might be better that way, she probably knows that i'm lost anyway. Nevertheless, i'm glad that she knows what i thought about us.

 

[eternalpeace]

I say go for it, though in fairness, that's always really easy to say to someone else! One of my (many) regrets is the way that a certain friendship played out. We hadn't really been hanging out and then I ran into her, and she asked about something cryptic another friend had said to her about me. I told her it was nothing and that I had to go. Then I felt badly, as I had been a bit rude and she didn't deserve it. I reached out to her one last time, and I clumsily tried to explain why I felt awkward around her. She never replied, so I deleted the message, and all traces of her. I really wish we had been able to re-establish the friendship, but I don't regret sending that final message. I said my piece, and I tried to clean up my side of the street. I didn't get the outcome I wanted, but I'm still glad I did it.