I want to disappear

[ixkitty]

O want to cease to exist because I'm too nice to be a human being. O see the signs that people use and abuse me for their own benefit. I can't even get someone out of my apartment. I'm trying so hard to pull the trigger and can't. I want so bad to have a poison or anything to make it go away.
I'm a nice person as I'm told. And I can't be un nice. I just want to go. I need to go ..

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Yes people are real good at sniffing out weakness. Socializing is just a game of power dynamics. Nice people are liked because they are easier to exploit. No one respects nice people. They respect people who take what they want.

I rather die than be used by others as a pawn. At that point you are not even human.

 

[ixkitty]

Precicely !

 

[Versailles]

O want to cease to exist because I'm too nice to be a human being

Exactly the opposite happens with me, I am not good for being human, I do not understand them, I do not know how to socialize with them, it is difficult for me to understand this absurd world and I simply think that what I can give is not able to compensate for the fact that I am not good. Not at all.

 

[ixkitty]

Exactly the opposite happens with me, I am not good for being human, I do not understand them, I do not know how to socialize with them, it is difficult for me to understand this absurd world and I simply think that what I can give is not able to compensate for the fact that I am not good. Not at all.

That's interesting. My polar opposite

 

[FuneralCry]

I also want to disappear and be free from this horrible life. Some people can be so cruel. I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I have had the same problem - people pleasing. Ive spent my life trying to make others happy and never found out who I was or what I needed. It's ruined me financially and romantically. Ive got nothing left in the fuel tank. No energy left to try.

Time to hit the rest button and start the game over.

 

[ixkitty]

I also want to disappear and be free from this horrible life. Some people can be so cruel. I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

I am trying so hard! I hope o do too

I have had the same problem - people pleasing. Ive spent my life trying to make others happy and never found out who I was or what I needed. It's ruined me financially and romantically. Ive got nothing left in the fuel tank. No energy left to try.

Time to hit the rest button and start the game over.

I feel that! People pleasing till your own tank is empty