I want to die

[Josuyo]

I hate everything

I hate living

I hate that I got out of this awful house and ended right back here because of so called "freinds"

Friends who didn't respect me and made me feel inadequate

One of which drove me to almost dying

Everything that is happening and has happened makes me wish I had succeeded and now all I have on my mind is death

I don't want to try anymore and I want to rip apart anyone who says that bullshit that they want to "help" me

Get out of my life, get the FUCK away from me

I want to be fucking alone

I want time for myself

I just want to shut everything out

If I'm going to at least try to live I want everything else to go away

I'm close to running away and I genuinely am considering doing so

I shouldn't be going through this at my age but being disabled traps me in places and abusive relationships

I just want it all to stop. I wish I died. I wish I died. I want to die and it will be because of everything around me because I have tried so hard, against every natural instinct I have, to live some sort of happy fulfilling life

But it's not happening

I don't want to keep trying

I'm done and I hope I die so soon

And I hope maybe some of the people who hurt me may get some sort of comeuppance for their actions

Because it has been confirmed by so many people, including medical professionals and trained psychiatrics, that they were knowingly gaslighting me and manipulating me. People I put so much time and love and care into, who I still care about now when I don't want to, they knowingly did that damage and wanted to abuse me.

I want to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

Living is very painful, I want nothing to do with life. I feel done with life as well. Some people can be so cruel. I'm sorry you are going through this, it is understandable wanting to exit when you are constantly suffering. I wish you the best, I hope you find peace and freedom from pain.

 

[Kennish]

I understand. I also want to die

 

[Ch92921]

Yes I also want to be left alone.

 

[wanttodie]

me to i want to die

 

[GreenTree]

Don't we all mate. That's why we're on a suicide forum. Lifes been fucking cruel too us all.