3spiral
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- Apr 22, 2026
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I don't believe in myself. I'm useless. I'm gonna need to actually get a life after high school and I don't think I can do it. it's pathetic, I know it well, but I'm anxious and always distracted and know nothing about the world and everyone else around me knows that. I have no self control, I can't make a perspective of life and it's my fault so I want to make the choice to leave it
right now my life is pretty stable so I don't have a reason to leave it, and I might give adult life a chance before making the definitive choice but knowing myself I don't think I'm capable of many things. even if I don't end up killing myself in the end just the thought that I might die after high school ends is comforting on itself
my chosen method would probably be sn if I'm desperate but I really wish I could make it look like an accident. I don't think it would be any less traumatic for my family if it were an accident but at least they wouldn't blame me or have questions with no answers
being dead probably doesn't feel that bad, I'm not that scared anymore. I feel like it might even be kind of comfortable. I remember a couple years ago I read something related to what happens to your brain when you're dying. I won't be able to recall exactly what it is but I know that you'll just be able to feel a sense of happiness and peacefulness before going, I imagine as if you were being hugged into your unconsciousness. life is actually much more brutal than death, I don't know why would you choose to keep going
right now my life is pretty stable so I don't have a reason to leave it, and I might give adult life a chance before making the definitive choice but knowing myself I don't think I'm capable of many things. even if I don't end up killing myself in the end just the thought that I might die after high school ends is comforting on itself
my chosen method would probably be sn if I'm desperate but I really wish I could make it look like an accident. I don't think it would be any less traumatic for my family if it were an accident but at least they wouldn't blame me or have questions with no answers
being dead probably doesn't feel that bad, I'm not that scared anymore. I feel like it might even be kind of comfortable. I remember a couple years ago I read something related to what happens to your brain when you're dying. I won't be able to recall exactly what it is but I know that you'll just be able to feel a sense of happiness and peacefulness before going, I imagine as if you were being hugged into your unconsciousness. life is actually much more brutal than death, I don't know why would you choose to keep going
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