I want to ctb but don’t want to hurt family

[Bruces]

I feel ready but scared of hurting family

 

[orangepotato]

Many of us are in the same situation. If only there were a way to die without hurting otters...

 

[Bruces]

That's what I'm looking for

 

[Gabriel.88]

Same situation here.

 

[logan]

That is the biggest problem - especially if you have children.

 

[Anonymoussn]

I'd have done it by now if it wasn't for this. Its my parents. I know that my siblings and friends will be gutted but that they'll get over it, but I feel like with my parents I don't think they will ever move on. If you have kids you've spent your life looking after them and they're what you live for - so how would you get over that?

I don't have any helpful advice, I just wanted to share my frustration.

 

[mold]

weirdly enough, i'm not too worried about my family and friends because im really only close to a select few people. but i get sad wondering if my cats will miss me. they don't understand death, what if they'll miss me if i'm gone?

 

[grungeCat]

Same here... I would assume that most people considering suicide are scared of the same thing

 

[Rae82]

Yep, I have a little girl and the thought of what it will do to her makes me feel so horrendous.

 

[babyinmyuniverse]

My dad found out about my recent attempt and said he'll kill him self if anything happens to me. I don't want to hurt him but I can't take this

 

[FuneralCry]

I know what you mean. I don't have any children but I have a few family members. I guess in my case I wouldn't suffer for the sake of others. I plan to write a note saying 'theres nothing you could have done' and 'now I am at peace' which may provide some closure. It is hard though as suicide is a pain cycle, to end our own it passes it on to other people. There is nothing really to help with those feelings I guess.

 

[TheLoneWolf]

This can be really hard.

7 years ago I promised myself not to end my life before my younger siblings were done with education and old enough to not be influenced by my choice to ctb.

Today all my siblings are doing very good and I'm the only one really struggling with life (chronic pain and mental issues). I hope my family will understand if/when I ctb and I wish everyone could move on like nothing happened.

If suicide wasn't taboo then I think it would be easier for the family. I wish I could tell my family that sooner or later I just want peace without hurting anyone.

 

[Freelyffe88]

I feel ready but scared of hurting family

I kind of see it like being in a bad relationship and staying in it because you don't want to hurt the other person's feeling. At the end of the day you need to do what is right for you. At least that's how I see it for me, if I'm unhappy and want to die, I'm not really doing my family any favors being in that mental state. The most important thing that I want to do is, put them at ease as much as possible in my suicide note. I don't want to leave them with any residual guilt.

 

[logan]

I kind of see it like being in a bad relationship and staying in it because you don't want to hurt the other person's feeling. At the end of the day you need to do what is right for you. At least that's how I see it for me, if I'm unhappy and want to die, I'm not really doing my family any favors being in that mental state. The most important thing that I want to do is, put them at ease as much as possible in my suicide note. I don't want to leave them with any residual guilt.

This is one of the most difficult questions. Is it selfish or not?

On the one hand, it is our life - but we are all connected. And the people we are connected to will suffer, a lot.

I think that has to be weighed very carefully - we owe that to you.
But if it's really no longer possible, then you should at least tell them that you love them and that they are not the reason.

 

[Dear Agony]

The fear of forever scarring my family is the only thing that holds me back at all at this point. I feel 100% ready for death and accepting of almost all methods. I hate it so much that I just can't leave without consequences...

 

[logan]

The fear of forever scarring my family is the only thing that holds me back at all at this point. I feel 100% ready for death and accepting of almost all methods. I hate it so much that I just can't leave without consequences...

I really understand you …

 

[Anonymous 4]

Fact is your family will hurt, there's nothing you can do about that if CTB,

 

[reasonablylost]

As anyone thought about getting ill on purpose? Like doing something that could make you have cancer, so at least your family can rest in piece after mourning a more natural death.

 

[logan]

As anyone thought about getting ill on purpose? Like doing something that could make you have cancer, so at least your family can rest in piece after mourning a more natural death.

This is definitely not a good way - very painful and long for you.
And how long the whole thing will last is also uncertain ...