FoxSauce
Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
- Aug 23, 2024
- 648
Theae past few days have been absolute torture.
Feeling depressed for more than a week. I keep on smiling and hoping for just the sadness to run its course.
I cant even shower sometimes but i have to. I feel so alone even tho i have people around me, i cant be homest with myself or my parents not anyone. I really trying to balance everything at once, therapy, DBT , doctors appointments, work personal life but it feels like to much. Even drinking my meds seems like a chore.
I just want peace the only peace I have is sleeping for days on end. Not even exercising brings me joy, all I want is to cry.I feel like a disgusting pile of shit who's a bad person, I dont deserve anything not even a shower.
People make me absolutly angry, I know ia wrong of me to do so, I try to not expressed that outwardly beacuse nobody deserves that.
I want to sh so badly but I cant break the promise I made to my therapist. I feel like im not even trying my best. I feel trapped within myself. My mind is constantly is on survival pay this , do this do that and so on. I dont wanna live like this, also the loneliness is suffocating.
Why people are so evil?
Now people shoot you for even looking at them funny. Is that all their is just a cycle obeying the higher up while they smile down at the suffering at others? Living paycheck to paycheck everytime? People taking advantage of other at their most vulnerable?
I dont wanna keep going if im only gonna disappoint. I try to handle it all as best of my abilities but im at my breaking point.
Apologies for the long rant just wanted to take it out of my chest
Feeling depressed for more than a week. I keep on smiling and hoping for just the sadness to run its course.
I cant even shower sometimes but i have to. I feel so alone even tho i have people around me, i cant be homest with myself or my parents not anyone. I really trying to balance everything at once, therapy, DBT , doctors appointments, work personal life but it feels like to much. Even drinking my meds seems like a chore.
I just want peace the only peace I have is sleeping for days on end. Not even exercising brings me joy, all I want is to cry.I feel like a disgusting pile of shit who's a bad person, I dont deserve anything not even a shower.
People make me absolutly angry, I know ia wrong of me to do so, I try to not expressed that outwardly beacuse nobody deserves that.
I want to sh so badly but I cant break the promise I made to my therapist. I feel like im not even trying my best. I feel trapped within myself. My mind is constantly is on survival pay this , do this do that and so on. I dont wanna live like this, also the loneliness is suffocating.
Why people are so evil?
Now people shoot you for even looking at them funny. Is that all their is just a cycle obeying the higher up while they smile down at the suffering at others? Living paycheck to paycheck everytime? People taking advantage of other at their most vulnerable?
I dont wanna keep going if im only gonna disappoint. I try to handle it all as best of my abilities but im at my breaking point.
Apologies for the long rant just wanted to take it out of my chest
