I want out NOW and it just absolutely sucks

[DeathWish77]

It just feels awful knowing I'd do it right now, right this instant, if I could. But, I have to wait to order a couple more materials which will take another 4-5 days, and then have to get all of them set up and pick a day to start fasting.

In the meantime, I have to get up early and go to groups all fucking morning at this program I'm staying at. I could realistically be dead in about 5-7 days but that just feels like an eternity. I've already had numerous suicide attempts, I'm sick of being alive, I'm aggravated I'm still alive after all this, and I just want out NOW. How frustrating.

 

[Bigpink]

It's sounds like your time is close at hand. Just hang in there and peace beckons

 

[heretogethelp]

It just feels awful knowing I'd do it right now, right this instant, if I could. But, I have to wait to order a couple more materials which will take another 4-5 days, and then have to get all of them set up and pick a day to start fasting.

In the meantime, I have to get up early and go to groups all fucking morning at this program I'm staying at. I could realistically be dead in about 5-7 days but that just feels like an eternity. I've already had numerous suicide attempts, I'm sick of being alive, I'm aggravated I'm still alive after all this, and I just want out NOW. How frustrating.

So do I, but my mum would be absolutely devastated if i killed myself. So, i'm stuck on this prison planet :(

 

[FuneralCry]

This life really can be torture and exhausting, I get that. I wish you well. It is really hard carrying on with life when you just want to leave.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Are you alive?

 

[Bullit]

Are you alive?

Since he's writing on SS I would have to say yes.