I want CTB every night. Every morning I tell myself - okay fucking one more chance for me today.

[orlandom]

I want CTB every night.

Every morning I tell myself - okay fucking one more chance for me today.

 

[PlushieLover]

Same bro. All this life thing is awful

 

[Ctb2b3]

25+years of it mate. as long as fate doesnt fuck it up ill be doing it soon.

 

[orlandom]

I see in this video myself and my therapist who promised that he would cure my depression. Do not worry...

Okay. Thank you. I myself.

 

[hfdepression30]

Me too, me too.. last night I was laying on my bed and I was thinking "should I do it? Can I do it?" and I felt tired. I just laid there thinking about it but not acting on it. It's always "maybe tomorrow". I'm procrastinating for nothing because I know there's no up from here for me. I'm just wasting time and oxygen at this point

 

[Ctb2b3]

ive learnt not to think about anything you want or need to do. just get the fuck on with it. it will be done sooner than the amount of time you spend thinking about it.

 

[WornOutLife]

I used to want to ctb everyday.

I remember I just put anytying similar to a rope around my neck and fantasized about hanging myself properly.

Now, time healed some of my wounds and even though I'm still suicidal and there are days on which I just wanna give up, I'm managing to live somehow.

I really understand how you feel, pal. Sorry you're going through this.

 

[Odwin]

In my case it is during the day. It's exhausting to run around talk to people. Only at night I am at peace

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

Me every evening: "I will do it tomorrow."
Me every morning: "I should have done it yesterday."

 

[orlandom]

Me every evening: "I will do it tomorrow."
Me every morning: "I should have done it yesterday."

Likewise. But now I have thoughts about whether to do it in the evening.

 

[bloomingdark]

I can relate, that bitter feeling of leaving it for later, waiting for something or someone to happen, but we still waiting, and waiting, we live once a day in a hell of this awful world.

Sending you hugs from the distance, i hope you can feel better, feel free to chat with me if you want to

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

Likewise. But now I have thoughts about whether to do it in the evening.

We should move to the arctic circle.

"I will do it when the sun sets."
Six months od daylight

 

[Quinlor]

I want CTB every night.

Every morning I tell myself - okay fucking one more chance for me today.

Lucky you, I try but I can't have a such rational conversation with my mind...

 

[Thegoldenapples]

ive learnt not to think about anything you want or need to do. just get the fuck on with it. it will be done sooner than the amount of time you spend thinking about it.

Ctb2b3 ended up using his N and left us soon after this post. He was a really nice dude. RIP

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Ctb2b3 ended up using his N and left us soon after this post. He was a really nice dude. RIP

Legendary-tier username.

 

[Bamman]

I think I'd had the ideal means to do it I Would do it. Little to no hesitation. If anything having the best and most peaceful way to ctb might give me reason to keep going if only for a bit to make amends.

 

[hfdepression30]

Ctb2b3 ended up using his N and left us soon after this post. He was a really nice dude. RIP

How do you know?

 

[Bergamot]

Mee too everyday thx to my gf.

 

[Thegoldenapples]

How do you know?

We were chatting via PM. He had done his 48 hour meto, fasted and was ready.

 

[hfdepression30]

We were chatting via PM. He had done his 48 hour meto, fasted and was ready.

Ah I see.. well in that case, if he went through and succeeded, I hope he's resting easy and free from the suffering he endured here. RIP