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Arthuroff

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Jul 28, 2024
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I have thought a lot about this. And I know how much I will hurt my friends and family. But I feel I do not want to carry on with my life, especially because my 15 year relationship with my partner has just ended. I have failed at everything I have ever attempted to do. Enough is enough.

I want to use the meds my doctors uselessly keep prescribing me to 'treat' my anxiety and depression, sleep issues, etc. Namely I think I have a decent amount of propranolol, promethazine, cyclizine, and also some codein and a month's worth of 20mg escitalopram, and I have planty of hard alcohol.

What combination of these and in what order would guarantee a favorable outcome? I am very afraid at ending up with a damaged brain or liver but still technically alive. My previous attempts were meager and spontanious and yielded no results, and this was over ten years ago. I do not want to mess up this time.

I would appreciate honest replies and guidance, please.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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My honest advice is to read the PPeH!

There's the Suicide Resource Compilation:

 
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Last dance

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Aug 7, 2024
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i dont think that you would CTB, sorry, i just ended a 3 year old relationship and feel this way so I could only imagine what you feeling right now..
 
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Arthuroff

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Jul 28, 2024
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My honest advice is to read the PPeH!

There's the Suicide Resource Compilation:

I gather from what I've read (here and Five Last Acts) that my available means most likely won't work. I just figured one last question on this to see if it were plosible was worth it as I'm just really exhausted. My mental health has been in the can for over a decade, I've done over a decade of therapy, all those meds, education, work, self-help, spiritual practice, excercise, friendships, relationship, partnership. I've been blind and weak. Now a complete revelation, it's true: I have failed. So I wanted a quick solution. Now I need to figure out where to source SN, since strangulation is not an option for me as I'm hypersensitive and will only end up getting a massive panic attack. Or I don't kill myself and become a reclusive Buddhist monk or smth. Going mad.
 
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