I think this is the last week of my life

[WillOxyWork]

I feel this sense of impending doom. I've lost all hope. Life has really fucking kicked me in the groin this past year despite all the progress I made with my depression, and there's no coming back from this. The future seems so bleak.

 

[littlecorporal]

I suffer from depression - it always seems a one way street when I am in it. It doesn't matter what has happened in the past in that I have come out of it several times.

 

[greekyfish10]

i understand how you feel. it fucking sucks. i'm truly sorry that life has brought you to this point. if you really are going to ctb after this week then i respect your decision to do so and i hope that you will finally find peace. just make sure that this is something that you really want. don't ctb unless you're sure. i wish you nothing but love and peace. good luck.

 

[ebt88]

What's your ctb method?

 

[WillOxyWork]

i understand how you feel. it fucking sucks. i'm truly sorry that life has brought you to this point. if you really are going to ctb after this week then i respect your decision to do so and i hope that you will finally find peace. just make sure that this is something that you really want. don't ctb unless you're sure. i wish you nothing but love and peace. good luck.

Thank you. I've just never felt so much despair and all my coping mechanisms are ruined by tinnitus.

What's your ctb method?

SN following Stan's guide with stat dose

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

I feel for. I really do. My depression keeps me down and life keeps kicking me while I'm down. I hope whatever you decide, you finally have the peace you need.

 

[Sinai Silence]

It always feels like no matter how hard we try life finds a way to kick us back into the dirt.
I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[WillOxyWork]

I keep going back and forth. Sorry to be like this. My mom keeps calling me and is very concerned and is saying she can't sleep because she's so worried about me. Makes it very hard to go through with it.

Today the tinnitus hasn't been horrible and I'm thinking maybe I can learn to live with it as long as it doesn't get worse. Knowing me though, I'll be posting about how I want to die in 3 days

 

[mellow]

Glad to hear you're feeling better. Saw this and thought of your posts. there is hope.

 

[WillOxyWork]

Glad to hear you're feeling better. Saw this and thought of your posts. there is hope.

Thanks :), she has really good videos.

 

[littlecorporal]

Glad to hear you're feeling better. Saw this and thought of your posts. there is hope.

I'll take a look a this video - I have tinnitus. I spent months frantically trying to find a cure - alas there was none. So I decided to acclimatise and it worked after a say two months. Does depend on it's intensity though. But mine is more like a hissing noise now - I notice mostly when I am stressed. Ah, just watching it now - she retrained her brain - so it's not a cure it a coping technique. That is what I did with no therapy. Listening to her she is talking sense.

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear about your plight and I wish you peace in whatever your decision is.

 

[GravityUtilizer]

I'm sorry to hear about your plight and I wish you peace in whatever your decision is.

The OP caught the bus on Thursday, which hit me somewhat, having tinnitus myself.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/ctb-by-sn-tonight.44876/