I think my time might be soon

[Zzzzz]

Bit of a rant but meh. There really is no reason for me to continue. I hate every single day. I am metaphorically limping through life. Have been for many years. Absolutely no strength nor desire to live a reasonably happy life in this society.No long term future prospects whatsoever. Im tired of putting bandaid after bandaid on life's problems with no real solution. Some things recently happened that really made ctb more urgent or likely. I'm in a temporary place. In the near future things will 99.999% change for the worse. I hope that my time is soon. I wish it was tomorrow. But it might take weeks or months.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry things are so hopeless. I understand, I hate being alive as well. It is hard to carry on when you are suffering every day. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Zzzzz]

This is how I often feel about Earth. I really despise it sometimes. The circle of life is fundamentally cruel and predatory in the way it functions. It's deceptive, illusory and insidious. We might feel some meager minutes of happiness, and our primitive, illogical, desperate brains foolishly cling to any good feeling and misconstrue it as hope for the future. But in reality the future is much more likely to be worse or roughly the same as the present. Life is like a beautiful seductress/siren who lures you in and then viciously stabs you in the back. Life is Seemingly good and innocent on the outside, but quite dreadful in reality. Death,Loss,Disease, Disappointment, the inevitable deterioration of the body, etc the list goes on and on. Life is constantly offering false hope and then immediately shitting on the same whom it gives hope to! It's absurd! It is almost hard to imagine a more fucked up system for life than the one on this planet. This world is truly a masochists paradise. It's so easy to reach a state of pain. It Requires virtually no effort actually.

 

[Crazy4u]

I understand. I'm sorry you feel this way. Life is hopeless and some problems have no real solutions. It is like we have to live and suffer for many years