I think i may hang tonight

[Lornenihonium]

So i think this might be it, i feel like i may hang myself tonight, i am been having some serious desire to do it in the last few days and today my physical pain reach the torture level and trigger a panic attack that made my heart fell like was going to explode and other horrible symptoms, i have never been so scared in my entire life, the only question is, is today finally the day that i will be more scared of life than death?, i have done and still have to do some serious considerations and analysis regarding whether or not to do it but i have attemped to shot myself in the head for way less than this in 2019 (the gun failed), back in the day however, i was way more brave than i am now, all i have to do is overcome my extremely high potency SI and convince myself that there is something better on the other side and then take the leap of faith again, i really want to end it but unfortunatly i will most likely puss out although i really hope not, may God help me regardless than the outcome, maybe that is how he intended and the pain is he telling me is time to CTB

 

[PeacefulTonic]

Life can be real shitty. I'm always pro choice. Good luck with whatever you decide

 

[Shadowplay]

I'm sorry life was so cruel to you that it lead you to this. May you find peace. xoxox

 

[trianglesplayhouse]

Imo, I would recommend waiting until you're in a more stable state of mind. For practical reasons as well as whether or not you want to go through with it.

Hanging can be successful if done well but can lead to brain damage if you end up surviving for whatever reason. If you're more stable, you can minimise chances of failure better.

 

[cph]

Hanging is not easy too do. I've dabbled with the setup. It's very hard to override your SI. I empathize with how you feel my friend

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course suicide is very difficult as even know we want to die, we are programmed to survive. It can be awful being trapped in this human body, as there is no limit as to how much we can suffer and how bad health conditions can get, so wanting to escape from it all is perfectly understandable, I'm sorry you have had to go through this. I wish you the best with your plans. I hope you find peace and freedom from suffering.