Something to live I have to

[tabmeltsontoungue]

Awhile ago I made a list of all the things I needed to do before I kill myself and every single check was marked off other than the actual action of killing myself. I was planning to od without my family seeing but I met someone new. I know this sounds so stupid but shes going to college right near me and we talk everyday. I really do like her and I feel like she's the only person that takes me serious at the moment. I'm really scared of scaring her away because I know I get crazy but I really hope I don't. She likes me a lot too I'm pretty sure the only reason why I haven't killed myself yet is because I like talking to her.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

That's honestly so sweet. If you're unsure whether you actually wanna go through with ctb or not, don't do it. It is something you should be 100% certain of before doing. I hope you get to meet many other wonderful people like that girl and find peace.