I think I know why I want to kill myself

[Ixtlilton]

I am socially inept. I was with a bunch of co workers smoking after work. I was really really out of tune with everything. My friend was trying to talk to the two girls with me, and I just sat there and can't help but look sad. It was all I could think about, I just could not think about. He even said, " hey bro I'm trying to put down some game, you feel me?" I just tried to pretend I didn't here it, like I was so high. We went to one of our friends house, and it was not so good there. I only said about 8 words. They eventually started to play Madden then we had to go cause it was getting late. Then when I got home it felt like a wave of huge relief, like it was over. Honestly, I may be over reacting, I don't know. I just felt like I can come here to say it, because I have no one to say it to.

 

[All an illusion]

This "place" isn't meant for everyone...try and find your purpose friend...misanthropes like us are often looked as castaways but even if you can help and touch the life of another person on this devilish world that may mean more than you think.

 

[gnomeboy17]

Hey, I totally feel you on this. Is it something you have struggled with for a long time then? Either way, you may be able to find a way to improve it