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SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
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So my husband is seeing his Nan today, so I took the opportunity.
Same problem as always.
Couldn't get myself to pass out.
I don't feel upset, or anger, or sad that I didn't do it like I usally would.
I just feel defeated and numb.
I have done everything I can think of, every technique, every mega thread.
It looks so easy.
But I still can't do it properly.
I can't do full as I have nowhere to do it.
I'm so numb.
Oh well, time to suffer another day.
 
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lostangel

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Mar 22, 2019
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So my husband is seeing his Nan today, so I took the opportunity.
Same problem as always.
Couldn't get myself to pass out.
I don't feel upset, or anger, or sad that I didn't do it like I usally would.
I just feel defeated and numb.
I have done everything I can think of, every technique, every mega thread.
It looks so easy.
But I still can't do it properly.
I can't do full as I have nowhere to do it.
I'm so numb.
Oh well, time to suffer another day.

Are you using partial or full?
Are you using a rope?
Where on the neck are you positioning to rope?
Can you locate your carotid arteries with your fingers? Do pushups to help find them as they will be pulsing aggressively.
Most importantly how much force are you applying to your carotids?

I have tried partial many times and I have not passed out yet. If that makes you feel better. I hope you can find the problem and fix it.
 
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AnxietyAttack44

I just wanna go to my husband already.
Jun 5, 2020
1,092
Try to move rope up and down your neck testing it each time with your body weight, thats how i found out my pass out spot. It wasnt fast nor easy to find it. I still cant shut down carotids with my fingers but i can with certain ligatures.
Sometimes body position needs to be changed as well, all bodies are diffetent.

For me its low on neck while im leaning to the front, not too much tho. Others have it up on neck while dropping body straight down. I hope it helped a bit, wish you luck next tkme you try to find the spot
 
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