Venting I should have planned better

[so tired or manic]

I got my sn and am trying to drink 1.75 liers of vodka to try to get alcohol poisoning instead. it won't work. a liter in a few hours didn't work, neither will this.

I just want to die, but can't fast for shit.

 

[falloutcarter13]

Not for nothin', but alcohol has always served to fuck my attempts up in the past. They increase the urge and impulsivity, but make me make terrible choices and it always ends up half assed and more of a cry for help type thing. That's just me, but I feel like there's truth to that saying "God loves drunks and small children." That's why this next and hopefully last time, I'm going out sober

 

[so tired or manic]

as I mentioned in another thread somewhere, even my subconscious agrees I should be dead. I ripped out intubating tubes. I came to with mittens on my hands and my arms strapped to the... thing.

I'm not too worried about drunk me reaching out for help.

but drunk me doesn't think drinking is going to kill this body.

 

[I screwed up]

Imo If u can't fast try eat something very light ... Am sure u can hold on for 4 hrs without eating ..That plus meto should be good enuf . for the SN method. This method has higher chances of success than alcohol poisoning.