I never thought I would own a gun, but I do now

[chargirl]

I ordered it a few weeks ago and finally it's all mine. It makes me feel so confident and comforted to know that my life is in my own hands. <3

When I first made the purchase online, I had a panic attack. Despite my chronic suicidality, I've long had an aversion to guns and never, ever could have imagined owning one before this year. Finally buying it made me feel like everything was really wrong. Since that night, though, I've gotten back on antidepressants, and that's made me feel calm and composed about my decision. I'm not afraid anymore. (^_^)

I plan to CTB on my birthday in a few months and I'm so relieved to be one step closer. Now it's just a matter of getting rid of my stuff...

 

[itsgone2]

If you don't mind sharing, where did you buy it, and what gun? You were brave. This isn't easy. I've not been able. All of this is so difficult.

 

[PanaxMan]

I ordered it a few weeks ago and finally it's all mine. It makes me feel so confident and comforted to know that my life is in my own hands. <3

When I first made the purchase online, I had a panic attack. Despite my chronic suicidality, I've long had an aversion to guns and never, ever could have imagined owning one before this year. Finally buying it made me feel like everything was really wrong. Since that night, though, I've gotten back on antidepressants, and that's made me feel calm and composed about my decision. I'm not afraid anymore. (^_^)

I plan to CTB on my birthday in a few months and I'm so relieved to be one step closer. Now it's just a matter of getting rid of my stuff...

You could have ordered it online pretty easily and even Amazon (USA) has some for sale. Congrats though

 

[taker_of_insulin]

I've been considering buying one also. I was set on FSH, but I think a handgun behind the ear is an easy way to go. I just don't want my head to explode. I'd hate for my family to see that. But I'm worried I'll miss the brainstem and I'll become a vegetable or something.

How much did you pay for it if you don't mind? Is it a handgun?

 

[LastDayOnEarth]

I never thought I'd own a rope, now I do

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel relief, I wish you the best.