I need to let go of this world and focus on having a good death

[Lost Magic]

I need to break free from the shackles of this so called reality. I have to start focusing on having a good death, not a poor existence. Letting go is still not easy, even though I have nothing to live for. Does anybody feel the same? I really hope I go through with my plans and get out of dodge. I couldn't bear another full year of this worthless feeling. I need a good Swedish death cleaning session.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I certainly do need to focus on trying to die rather than just wishing to be dead, but dying is not easy for me and trying to plan just reminds me of what I cannot do and then I get scared of methods failing. I do think that for many it can be hard to let go of this life as this existence is all they know.

I do envy those who have a good death. A good death is what humans deserve the option of after having to endure such awful lives. I also feel like I have nothing to live for and I never have had a reason to be here. Existing is extremely pointless. I hope that you find relief from suffering.