I need to get through March

[HorribleFeelings1]

I fucking hate this, I made April my date for a reason. I tried Saturday but I wasn't ready yet. I hate this. The pain is unbearable but I can't leave yet because of my own damn fucking worries. If I didn't care about anything then this wouldn't be a problem. I would have been long gone. My thinking is more stronger then the will to commit suicide and I hate that so much, I wish I never cared to begin with. I can die anyday now .

im sorry for scaring you SS family, I won't do it again. When I say I'm gonna die , I'm gonna die.I wish I never had a big heart.

 

[Broken Chimera]

It's OK. You're not ready yet. Just take your time, do what you have to, vent here if you want, we'll listen. You have the rest of your life to do it, no need to rush. Make sure you're ready before you do it.