I need to CTB today

[Sans]

I need to CTB today. Life has sucker punched me in the face for the last time. Nothing brings me any sort of happiness or excitement anymore. It's all constant misery and getting discriminated/made fun of by others. It's obvious I don't belong in the gene pool, and I don't want to continue on with life if it's all going to be suffering and sadness because that's not much of a life. Another traumatic thing happened. Every goddamn week I have to go through another trauma. It's been nearly two decades and I've had enough. I need to CTB today, but I don't have any reliable method. i can't tie a noose or anything. no access to chemicals besides bleach which isn't reliable. But I have to find a way out of this because all my energy is exhausted from dealing with blow after blow.

 

[Worndown]

History shows that spontaneous attempts are often unsuccessful. Maybe you should start planning today.

 

[Anonymous_A]

History shows that spontaneous attempts are often unsuccessful. Maybe you should start planning today.

Is that really true?
I would have thought most people that ctb, especially via hanging just do it somewhat spontaneously. They'd just do it in the moment and not actually plan, like a lot of us do.

Like besides wondering 'how to tie a rope/knot' I bet just do if

I reckon if more people did plan their ctb, then there would be more sites like this place.

 

[watereyes]

you need a wizziegurl.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life can be really cruel, it can be exhausting when each day is just filled with misery, I know what that is like. It is hard to take our own lives, and the thing that holds me back is that methods can go wrong. I would do anything for a peaceful way out. I wish you well.