Venting i love cutting myself to gain control

[peachchildtenshi]

everytime i feel overwhelmed, perplexed or anyway similar, i would cut myself in order to gain control of myself,
does anyone do the same!!!

 

[Gstreater]

Yeah, it's gotten harder to hide from people however so only on my thighs now.

 

[time.is.near]

everytime i feel overwhelmed, perplexed or anyway similar, i would cut myself in order to gain control of myself,
does anyone do the same!!!

Yeah, struggled w this habit since i was a kid. Wish I never started

 

[brickedup]

i used to do smth like this but thankfully i'm in recovery now. ik saying the same bs "don't hurt yourself" wont do much but the realization that it will actually leave scars, permanents scars that last forever will def make you feel like shit abt yourself. stop before its too late please

 

[-Tandem-]

Yepp destroyed my left arm for 3 or 4yrs. I tattooed over it a few years ago. It looks like shit but it looks better than my scars. I hated the looks I always got. I miss it though..i don't like how people say it's an attention thing. When you're freakin the fuck out inside and breaking down it would calm me down almost instantly..used to keep a box under my bed full of broken glass in high school. I try to just focus on suicidal thoughts when i get upset now. Cutting is just temporary and it's a shitty coping mechanism. Hanging myself is the real play but I've got to get a little more confidence first. And settle some family things

 

[depressioncanfucoff]

Personally why i do it is more for the grounding side, like that sharp sting brings me back to real life, for better and for worse

 

[shrizoid]

i used to do smth like this but thankfully i'm in recovery now. ik saying the same bs "don't hurt yourself" wont do much but the realization that it will actually leave scars, permanents scars that last forever will def make you feel like shit abt yourself. stop before its too late please

Yeah the scarring shit always turned me away from it, its why I only did tiny cuts really, they're not noticeable at all

 

[Namelesa]

I do that too to gain control and lessen anxiety or emptiness. I also use it to punish myself when I feel guilty. To be honest I like the scars it creates as I like showing I am mentally in pain through them so I don't really have a reason to quit doing it.

 

[DeeDog]

I do less for control and more because sometimes my self-hatred gets so intense I need a way to manifest it. Might be sorta a form of punishment, because I hate myself so much. Idrk.

 

[ChronicAnamnesis]

it's nice and it works sure, but it absolutely destroyed my arms so just keep in mind it doesn't just go away after 2 months

 

[HenryHenriksen_6E]

Whenever I get stressed, I go to my sink, which gets hella hot on full heat, and put my hands underneath to freshen up a bit. Just makes things feel clearer, though I don't really do it too often, only when I really need it. It's good as it won't leave scars/wounds that I would need to hide. My hands get only a little irritated afterwards, although it goes away after some hours, and it's a quick and simple process: go to the bathroom, crank up the heat, and watch our hands smolder together with the stress; doesn't need aftercare either.

I also experimented with making a tiny rift on the inside of my thigh (people don't have a tendency to look there), and then get some hand sanitizer, and rub it in. Felt really nice as the type of pain is exactly the one I'm looking for. Like, there are some types of pain that are more 'enjoyable' than others. E.g. I'd rather do the hand sanitizer thing than stub my toe or purposefully hit a nerve.

 

[enid coleslaw]

everytime i feel overwhelmed, perplexed or anyway similar, i would cut myself in order to gain control of myself,
does anyone do the same!!!

I don't it regularly, but I have now and then. The first time, I got a huge rush of adrenaline and it was not even "painful". The rush of being alive flowed through me again. But its very tempting so I made myself not become a "cutter". But I understand what you mean.

 

[softgirlluna]

I graduated from cutting at 12-17 to bruising myself at 18-20 and then cig burns 20-present, but now 22 and back to cutting. comes full circle.

anyways i think a huge part of the appeal of cutting is you hold it with you more than any other forms of sh. you have to take care of your wounds, hide them more than other forms. i hate that i do it but idk

 

[hao☆]

everytime i feel overwhelmed, perplexed or anyway similar, i would cut myself in order to gain control of myself,
does anyone do the same!!!

yre not alone on this one <3

 

[motherofmahesh]

Personally why i do it is more for the grounding side, like that sharp sting brings me back to real life, for better and for worse

Yeah I did it for a few months when I was 14 aftwe things got really bad for me, then relapsed in my thirties after things once again got really bad. Anyway, the reason I say that is because leading up to my relapse I couldn't stop ruminating over some stuff that happened but the first time I hurt myself my mind went quiet for the first time in a year.

 

[CandleShade]

You don't feel like you're hurting yourself when you're cutting. You feel like this is the only way to take care of yourself.