I just want to run away

[edu0z]

Every time the idea of leaving through the door of my house with nothing on top and without any direction is more comforting... walking, and walking... go as far as I can and then die somewhere... I'm seriously thinking about doing it, I can't continue.

 

[CommitSudoku]

When do you leave and can I come? This thought brings me great comfort too, the thought I could leave all this stress behind and just be done. Not sure I could ever do it in reality.

 

[jimmy7754]

I know what you mean.. just go walk till your feet hurt and legs are screaming.. and maybe the world can just sweep me up.

 

[edu0z]

When do you leave and can I come? This thought brings me great comfort too, the thought I could leave all this stress behind and just be done. Not sure I could ever do it in reality.

give up all the shit and just be free even if it's in your last days... see the world, the sunsets... and die in peace in some unknown place.

I know what you mean.. just go walk till your feet hurt and legs are screaming.. and maybe the world can just sweep me up.

Exactly

 

[CommitSudoku]

give up all the shit and just be free even if it's in your last days... see the world, the sunsets... and die in peace in some unknown place.

I already wanted to join before you added this lol in my current life I barely even leave the house. I don't think we were made to live like this, I feel so trapped. I don't know how to give anything up. It's either I keep going or I stop forever.

 

[edu0z]

I already wanted to join before you added this lol in my current life I barely even leave the house. I don't think we were made to live like this, I feel so trapped. I don't know how to give anything up. It's either I keep going or I stop forever.

I've been thinking about it for a long time (since childhood), and every night I feel the need to do it... but lately I'm thinking it would be a real good idea.

Since I was a child I have only wanted freedom. The idea of suicide for me is to be free. I have always felt bound and imprisoned to so many things... school, obligations, families, relationships, friends etc... I just want to be free at once, leave it all. I have already resigned, nothing matters to me anymore... I just want to be at peace my last moments before I die.

I've come to think that maybe once I'll leave and start living on the street or somewhere... and I feel freer, maybe I will stop feeling like committing suicide since the instinct of survival will come to the surface. In that case I am sure that I will feel better outside than here locked in my house.

 

[CommitSudoku]

Best wishes if you decide to go out on your own. Continue to post here if you ever feel like it. I'd love to hear if it does change anything but please try to stay safe (this is hypocritical sounding but I'll leave it as is).

 

[SpaceCadet]

Every time the idea of leaving through the door of my house with nothing on top and without any direction is more comforting... walking, and walking... go as far as I can and then die somewhere... I'm seriously thinking about doing it, I can't continue.

"And I've got a strong urge to fly, but I got nowhere to fly to..."

 

[Forever Dead]

My Dad is dying from terminal lung cancer, I am just keeping it together until he has passes away. All of my so-called friends left me long ago, and there is nobody else left in my family except a sister and nephew who couldnt give a damn about me because they think Im " not normal " simply because I suffer from chronic depression that has turned into Anhedonia. I have given all of my possessions away except for a rucksack full of camping gear. When my Dad finally passes away I am taking a train to the highlands of Scotland where I shall spend my very last days utterly alone and away from the torment of this sick twisted thing that we call society. I shall then die utterly alone in the middle of nowhere and breathe a huge sigh of relief as I close my eyes for the vary last time.

 

[HellWorld]

The idea of suicide for me is to be free. I have always felt bound and imprisoned to so many things... school, obligations, families, relationships, friends etc... I just want to be free at once, leave it all. I have already resigned, nothing matters to me anymore... I just want to be at peace my last moments before I die.

I feel the exact same way except for me it's that I feel imprisoned by my body (I have a chronic illness). I wish I didn't have this fear of death holding me back!!

 

[Someone123]

Every time the idea of leaving through the door of my house with nothing on top and without any direction is more comforting... walking, and walking... go as far as I can and then die somewhere... I'm seriously thinking about doing it, I can't continue.

This tends to go bad really fast. People without resources are very commonly quickly forced into human trafficking because people need food, shelter, etc. There are people out there everywhere looking for people who do this and they are ready to pounce- they often act so nice at first, and as soon as you are isolated you essentially become a prisoner of human trafficking.

 

[FuneralCry]

I am sorry that you are suffering, I understand that it is hard to carry on when you cannot take anymore of this life. I also see death as being freedom, I deserve peace. I have never wanted to be alive and all that I want is to sleep for all eternity. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[edu0z]

I am sorry that you are suffering, I understand that it is hard to carry on when you cannot take anymore of this life. I also see death as being freedom, I deserve peace. I have never wanted to be alive and all that I want is to sleep for all eternity. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

hi, I really hope that one day you can find the peace you deserve

 

[Chiisai]

give up all the shit and just be free even if it's in your last days... see the world, the sunsets... and die in peace in some unknown place.

Exactly

This crossed my mind too but the thought of being found dead in a public place and published on the news makes me hesitate.