Being asperger

[Sadbanana]

I don't like the idea that I have no value. But as a male Asperger I was remained it over and over through my life.

For most of my life I have been treated like a ghost. It feels like I just don't deserve empathy or respect and nobody owes it to me. Yet other people give it to each other and when it comes to other people have similar problems suddenly it metters and a most people feel entilted to affection. But when it comes to me I should just wither and die, without bothering anyone.

It's not worth to live like this. And it's very difficult to straight to not despise NTs. The fact that most of them arr walking npcs unable to create their own independent thought doesn't make it easier to forgive them.

When I'm suicidal, maybe I'm much more rational than I think. Through others gaslighting, I learned that this level of suffering and loneliness is "normal" and I'm just being dramatic.

It's not, it's unbearable and majority of nts can't even comprehend how bad it is.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I'm an aspie too, and i too was treated as a ghost my entire life. The only time i was noticed is when people wanted to use me for a favor. I lived my entire 39 years of this life totally alone.

 

[Yknot]

I'm officially only ADHD but pretty sure I could have gotten an asperger-stamp in my book. For me it's not a disorder but a neurodivergent quality - I may be a little awkward but I'm pretty good at what I do. I've been self employed for the past 26 years., suits me better. People don't mind so much that you always question them when they pay you for it :-)

 

[aceHardlight]

I'm an aspie too, I coped my entire life with opiates and benzodiazepines. Recently I have started getting serious professional help. Now my meds are working pretty good and I will probably even get an ADHD med on top of it.

Don't give up before you've exhausted all resources. Our brains are not wired like those of healthy people. You do NOT have to go through the world without medication that make life more easy!

 

[Sadbanana]

I'm an aspie too, I coped my entire life with opiates and benzodiazepines. Recently I have started getting serious professional help. Now my meds are working pretty good and I will probably even get an ADHD med on top of it.

Don't give up before you've exhausted all resources. Our brains are not wired like those of healthy people. You do NOT have to go through the world without medication that make life more easy!

What medication do you take?

 

[Passenger4224]

I also have aspergers and wish people would cut it out with the neurodivergence positivity bs and find a damn cure so I can be an NPC like everyone else

 

[aceHardlight]

What medication do you take?

It took a while, actually I have tried well over 20 meds and now I take Paroxetine and Olanzapine. This combination is the best I've ever had.

Paroxetine makes everything mellow and stress free, Olanzapine makes me resilient and blocks sensory overload and helps my paranoid ideation.

 

[Sadbanana]

I also have aspergers and wish people would cut it out with the neurodivergence positivity bs and find a damn cure so I can be an NPC like everyone else

Real.

 

[Yknot]

I also have aspergers and wish people would cut it out with the neurodivergence positivity bs and find a damn cure so I can be an NPC like everyone else

Yes but big chance they won't so I'll just take my strattera and try to get through the day. Just because the majority of people suck does not make me less. Only less normal. F*ck normal.

 

[BillyBob]

Aspie

It took a while, actually I have tried well over 20 meds and now I take Paroxetine and Olanzapine. This combination is the best I've ever had.

Paroxetine makes everything mellow and stress free, Olanzapine makes me resilient and blocks sensory overload and helps my paranoid ideation.

Aspie here too. I am on a Olanzapine for Anorexia thoughts and it does help mellow them out a bit but I can not function at all and feel drowsy all day since I have to take it 3 times a day.

Interacting with people sucks so hard that it becomes pointless because they can talk for so long about nothing at all. How do people do it.

 

[Passenger4224]

Yes but big chance they won't so I'll just take my strattera and try to get through the day. Just because the majority of people suck does not make me less. Only less normal. F*ck normal.

Meh ... this is a hot take, but the normal people do not suck, and it is people like me that are subhuman. The way I am treated for my shortcomings is rightfully so. I am the one who is incompetent, unlikeable, and a complete burden to everyone around me. It's the ugly truth in my eyes.

I do not wish to cope with being one of natural selection's biggest victims, therefore I will eliminate myself completely.

 

[Sadbanana]

Meh ... this is a hot take, but the normal people do not suck, and it is people like me that are subhuman. The way I am treated for my shortcomings is rightfully so. I am the one who is incompetent, unlikeable, and a complete burden to everyone around me. It's the ugly truth in my eyes.

I do not wish to cope with being one of natural selection's biggest victims, therefore I will eliminate myself completely.

Nah, "normal" people suck. Maybe not all, but majority of them are toxic assholes.