Aphid
Rotting Failure.
- Apr 30, 2026
- 100
I don't know if I want help, I just want to get worse and die as deserved. Does anyone feel similarly? That they just want to suffer, they want it to happen constantly. More suffering. 'More Hurt.
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BlueMist96
Member
- May 12, 2026
- 74
I get this. I think that being stuck in the middle feels worse than just giving up entirely. I imagine this is why people seem happier in the days before their suicide. I think I've felt that way before, but here I am stuck in the middle again.I gave up wanting help and trying months ago...more hurt, more suffering is equating to the "push" that I need to finally end the suffering. Once my brain and my heart sees no more hope, maybe then I'll finally be able to jump in front of or off of....maybe then I can finally complete partial...it always comes down to SI and people talk about needed a "push" to me, that push is a complete loss of self and hope.i completely understand you everyday I just get worse and worse I cant wait to I completely end the suffering because everyday its tortureSimilar threads
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