i just want to die

[Life_and_Death]

i took 15mg (ish) of indica. which probably seems like nothing to most of you but indica puts me on my ass and i sleep for hours. (it was 1+1/2 a little chocolate i had. i meant to add that and forgot to. i know edibles are different and all that) it works better then the melatonin i take. well shortly after taking it i just laid there. i felt calm, relaxed. it felt like it was the last time i was going to close my eyes. however i wasnt falling asleep and i got bored of laying there so i got up.

but while i was laying there i thought how nice it would be to peacefully just fall asleep. i know im suppose to be getting better but i just.....idk......sometimes i want to live but at other times.....like right now.......i just want to sleep. i really hope my friend is right and getting better is worth it.

 

[Alucard]

We are born to die. All of us. But only suicidal people are lucid about that.

 

[wanttodie]

me i just want to die