Method I just want this constant pain to go away.

[sdrock32]

Past two months have been hell to me , this constant pain no matter how much i try to distract myself doesn't stop
Feels like only way to end this pain is by CTB.
I have had few failed attempts and its kills me more
i tried hanging, it failed beacuse the rope got lose and my feet touched the ground
I tried putting vinegar and baking soda in a garbage bag and putting over my head but out of panic i teared the bag after 15-20 secs
I tried putting butane in the bag and cover my head but all it did was made me feel high , heart rate got up or down i dont know , I passed out but gained back my consciousness after an hour I guess
I really need a way out , every minute of my life feels like a burden and only thing i can think of is how to end this.
after reading some threads here i got to know that SN is an option as well so i have ordered it and it will be delivered within a week or so , but i dont know how i even will handle myself even a day more
I have also ordered some charcoal which i am gonna try tomorrow night in my bathroom, Please help me with an option which will work 100% so i don't have to go through all this again and again
Also TBH i also think about this, what if we think that ending life will end the pain hopefully but what if there is actually an afterlife which could be worse and there is no coming back from it.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered so unbearably in this cruel, torturous existence, I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[sdrock32]

I just want a way out , there is nothing left to hold on to

 

[Freedomm]

I hope you find a way out of your suffering. I read that SN is a very reliable method, that's one of the reasons why I'm considering it.

 

[sdrock32]

Yeah , I am gonna have to wait for it to get delivered next week, I don't know if I have it in me to hold on to life anymore.
I want this to end soon so i am gonna try vinegar and soda again in the bag and would try not to tear up the bag this time and if that doesn't work "again" i am gonna try butane in the bag "again"
I have to , I am also considering partial hanging but i see there is a lot of complications in that if it's not done right

 

[Freedomm]

Yeah , I am gonna have to wait for it to get delivered next week, I don't know if I have it in me to hold on to life anymore.
I want this to end soon so i am gonna try vinegar and soda again in the bag and would try not to tear up the bag this time and if that doesn't work "again" i am gonna try butane in the bag "again"
I have to , I am also considering partial hanging but i see there is a lot of complications in that if it's not done right

Please do not use vinegar and soda. It's so funny that I also tried to die this way once. But with hypercapnia, you activate a very powerful panic, you will not be able to cope with it. This is a bad method that does not have any results.

 

[sdrock32]

I have seen an article somewhere where a 20yr was successful with this method, he used citric acid and basic soda though