Venting I just self harmed for the first time in a while

[BPDbitch]

I feel like I'm 15 again. I wish I'd killed myself back then instead of hoping life would get better. It didn't.

 

[laserpunk]

i feel this completely, i've been holding off on my usual methods, but i know i've just been replacing things with other bad habits

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

I am in the exact same situation. I've sliced up my hip. I thought I wasn't going to do it again but the urges got to me. Here if you want to talk <3

 

[BPDbitch]

I feel really pathetic now. I can't wait to finally die.

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

SH makes me feel stronger. Like I have some control but it's also to punish me for being alive. Makes this stupid fucking body feel some pain. Suffer

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

So sorry. Not sure what you did. I used to punch myself. I was never a cutter. I did hold a knife to my neck when I was a teenager... couldn't go through with it.
I'm sure I would have been found living with my parents anyway.

I feel really pathetic now. I can't wait to finally die.

I feel the same. I can't wait for it to be finally over.

 

[BPDbitch]

So sorry. Not sure what you did. I used to punch myself. I was never a cutter. I did hold a knife to my neck when I was a teenager... couldn't go through with it.
I'm sure I would have been found living with my parents anyway.

I feel the same. I can't wait for it to be finally over.

I wish I had the guts to slit my throat. I'm a cutter. Thought I gave it up when I was like 17 but here I am.

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

Ive done a lot of things: biting, scratching, hitting, punching, choking, hair pulling, slamming head against things, cutting, but my all time favorite for its creativity was when I rubbed a toothbrush on my arm until it bled

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I wish I had the guts to slit my throat. I'm a cutter. Thought I gave it up when I was like 17 but here I am.

I wish I would have had the guts to do it as a teen. I would have been spared years of misery. I can't even CTB now.
I guess for some people life may get better but it does NOT happen for everyone. I don't want to encourage anyone who is a teenager to CTB.
I can't tell them it will "Get Better" who knows ???

 

[TStorm]

I understand and it sucks. I haven't for over a year now but the urges are high. Life really is awful sometimes.

 

[Hollow Point]

I'm sorry you're hurting so bad. I wish there was a magic way to take away the pain for you. Hopefully the bad feelings simmer down.