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JU.

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Aug 1, 2021
44
Hi everyone. I managed to complete the payment with money gram, now I'm waiting for delivery. I will be sorry to leave this world, I almost touched happiness before plunging into the abyss of obsessive thoughts and depression. I feel especially sorry for my parents and I wonder how to make this less painful. Do you have any advice? Is it better to "disappear" and die far away or let them find me at home?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,602
I feel like only you can answer the question as it is your life and your decision after all, but I feel like those left behind will be devastated no matter where you choose to die, but after all there is no way to escape pain in a life like this. To me life is only suffering. I think that in my case, I would choose to write a note to give those left behind some closure and will mean they are not left with unanswered questions.

I'm sorry that you are in such an unbearable situation. Living can be very painful as our thoughts can torture us, it can be awful living such a miserable existence. I can imagine that it must be a relief having the option of N. I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever you decide to do, I wish you the best.
 
dredd1981

dredd1981

All these moments will be lost in time
May 1, 2022
102
Let us know if you receive it ok, I'm in the UK and am a little wary of ordering in case it gets intercepted by customs. Do you mind if I ask how much it cost?
 
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JU.

Member
Aug 1, 2021
44
Facci sapere se lo ricevi ok, sono nel Regno Unito e sono un po' diffidente nell'ordinare nel caso venga intercettato dalla dogana. Ti dispiace se ti chiedo quanto costa?
1100USD for two bottles
 
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Risperdead

Risperdead

Agenda 2030 Sustainable Death
Jul 20, 2021
49
Let us know if you receive it ok, I'm in the UK and am a little wary of ordering in case it gets intercepted by customs. Do you mind if I ask how much it cost?
Received my N from D some days ago in germany! be confident
 
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Griffin780

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May 14, 2022
5
I am glad to see people on here being able to place orders and receive orders. I would advise you post as little info about D as possible in these forums. Such as cost and where his location is. For the safety of D. He is doing us a great service. Just pm some of other experienced members on here for that info.
 
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Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,245
Let us know if you receive it ok, I'm in the UK and am a little wary of ordering in case it gets intercepted by customs. Do you mind if I ask how much it cost?
I got mines for the UK, earlier in the year. It came no problem.
 
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dredd1981

dredd1981

All these moments will be lost in time
May 1, 2022
102
The OP ordered 2x100ml bottles and the price includes shipping by courier.
What's the lethal dose? Seems to me 200ml is probably excessive……I don't know if you saw quick77's thread a couple of weeks back, I'm pretty sure he only took one bottle and appeared to ctb within 5 minutes
 
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wljourney

wljourney

Waiting for the bus
Apr 2, 2022
1,419
What's the lethal dose? Seems to me 200ml is probably excessive……I don't know if you saw quick77's threat a couple of weeks back, I'm pretty sure he only took one bottle and appeared to ctb within 5 minutes
1 bottle contains 6.2g N.
The PPeH mentions 10g but often refers to just one bottle, which is usually enough for most people.

A 2nd bottle is for assurance of success in case the person is larger OR has issues with alcoholism/drug addiction (which can result in a higher drug tolerance).
 
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