I just need a way out that is guaranteed. Please help.

[Drkrzr]

There can be no mistakes. It would be too painful. It's better for all involved for a clean break. I have financial resources. Please tell me what's the best, most clean way. I can't keep doing this.
Thank you.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

If you have financial resources you should fly to Peru or Mexico and get N. You could probably be there faster than Someone could ship it to you with no confiscation risk

 

[Drkrzr]

If I want to stay in the US, how long does it usually take to get what I need? (For reference, I'm in the Midwest).

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

If I want to stay in the US, how long does it usually take to get what I need? (For reference, I'm in the Midwest).

I would check out the N from D mega thread that reports users experienced with ordering the drug, many also comment on shipping times .

 

[Drkrzr]

This is a dumb question I know. But how do I know when I have the ability to send messages to people here? Man... I really wish I did.

 

[suicidesheep31]

N is the best

 

[Drkrzr]

I feel like I can't get any info until I can send messages. I don't know how to get this. This is torture. I've tried twice, in dramatic fashion. Found both times. In a horrible way. I never processed what I did.
I want to know to decode all of this to end it. Jesus.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

I feel like I can't get any info until I can send messages. I don't know how to get this. This is torture. I've tried twice, in dramatic fashion. Found both times. In a horrible way. I never processed what I did.
I want to know to decode all of this to end it. Jesus.

If you have financial resources why so hesitant to leave the US?

Wouldn't you find it appealing to CTB in an exotic foreign locale ?

There was one guy here who said they wanted to CTB in a 400 dollar hotel. I too have considered CTB in a luxury hotel

 

[Al Cappella]

You know, the luxury hotel thing sounds really nice, actually. As for guarantees, there aren't any. Sorry.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

You know, the luxury hotel thing sounds really nice, actually. As for guarantees, there aren't any. Sorry.

The main reason I waffle around thinking about it is because I'm afraid I'll back out and it will have been a waste.

Much rather try to CTB in cheap hotel but in exotic destination. Love the idea of dying in a seaside resort

I was actually fantasizing this morning about renting a jet ski and taking N on the jet ski after going out really far from shore

 

[Graytaichi]

you need to do research, 1 golden rule , do not tell or signal to anyone your pro life decision. many at times , almost 100% the person will intervene and spoil your plan

 

[Al Cappella]

I was actually fantasizing this morning about renting a jet ski and taking N on the jet ski after going out really far from shore

If no one sees you heading out the probability of success would be really high, I should think. Nice too, warm water, breeze, etc. Very calming.

 

[Drkrzr]

Honest truth. I want to do this in the US. I have a perfect place in mind. But I don't know all the fancy acronyms or abbreviations going on. So I don't know what it means to get N.
If anyone doubts my sincerety, I can send you pictures of my last 2 times. Except maybe I can't due to permissions.
Shit Ok. Well maybe ok thanks.

 

[Ta555]

Honest truth. I want to do this in the US. I have a perfect place in mind. But I don't know all the fancy acronyms or abbreviations going on. So I don't know what it means to get N.
If anyone doubts my sincerety, I can send you pictures of my last 2 times. Except maybe I can't due to permissions.
Shit Ok. Well maybe ok thanks.

For some reason I can't copy and paste links but search for 'N files' post. It explains everything. Also look through the resources section.

 

[Graytaichi]

Do not tell anyone abt your decision to suicide. Thats the no1 golden rule. Yes it feeels aweful but you need to overcome that

 

[wrybuzzard]

PPH Nov 2021

If you start with this resource, it will answer a lot of your questions. It has a big section on N.

 

[DoneWithIt]

+1 good starting place there are also resource sticky posts. As well as support for recovery if that's your thing.

 

[Crazy4u]

I feel like I can't get any info until I can send messages. I don't know how to get this. This is torture. I've tried twice, in dramatic fashion. Found both times. In a horrible way. I never processed what I did.
I want to know to decode all of this to end it. Jesus.

why were you caught?

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are in so much pain. I understand that it can be hard to carry on when you cannot take anymore of this life. I wish you the best in whatever happens.