I just am done.

[delilah00]

I cant do this anymore. I have no strength left in me. I dont even know what to do next and feel so empty. So much shit has happened in my life and I don't want to deal with it anymore. Im so hopeless and alone. Theres nothing left for me.

 

[ket]

i'm sorry - what's up?

 

[delilah00]

i'm sorry - what's up?

Honestly come to the realization that I will never have the life I was hoping for because I'm not made for it. Nobody wants to deal with me. Idn whats wrong with me- too much childhood trauma seeped into my adult life and just made things spiral I guess. I found out recently I am infertile. That pretty much cemented to me that I have nothing left here. Thank u for asking

 

[ket]

Honestly come to the realization that I will never have the life I was hoping for because I'm not made for it. Nobody wants to deal with me. Idn whats wrong with me- too much childhood trauma seeped into my adult life and just made things spiral I guess. I found out recently I am infertile. That pretty much cemented to me that I have nothing left here. Thank u for asking

ah yeah, it's always tough when you have this idea of how you think your life is gonna end up and it just. doesn't end up being that. do you think you'd be ok with any of the alternatives?

legitimately sorry about the reproductive news though. i had... a worrying amount of blood at one point, then never again, so i am probably with you there. trying to not dwell on it.

 

[summers]

@delilah00 being infertile is not the end. What it means is that instead of a traditional family, you have the chance to pursue your dreams. Travel, meet new people, take chances, start over whenever you want. I got a vasectomy at 20 years old, and never once regretted the choice, not even for a second. I can say assuredly that the happiest people I know are those without children.

I respect whatever you decide, but you really owe it to yourself to see where this ride called life will take you - sometimes the least expected outcomes can be the best.

 

[DanceUntilTheEnd]

I cant do this anymore. I have no strength left in me. I dont even know what to do next and feel so empty. So much shit has happened in my life and I don't want to deal with it anymore. Im so hopeless and alone. Theres nothing left for me.

My friend was infertile as well. No hope at all. Then she adopted and found hope and 2 years later she got pregnant. Like it shouldn't have been possible. The human body is bizarre.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand it is hard to carry on when you are tired of everything. I'm sorry you have to go through this. I also feel done with life. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[Its like that]

I can relate to that empty feeling somewhat. I know each ones pain is personal and i respect that. However, the feeling that life is over is a sentiment that quite a few of us deal with day to day. I only say this to show i can relate. I never knew what depression was capable of until i found myself bent in agony on my couch for days. I awake in tears and go through my day feeling mentally and physically amputated. ( i mean no disrespect to anyone who has gone through that). I also am a shell of my previous self and it sucks to see that life just continues. The game doesn't stop just because we are injured. Its the worse feeling.