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shark
- Sep 13, 2024
- 18
i'm so tired. i've been medically diagnosed with 4 disorders (depression, anxiety, bipolar, ADHD) and it's getting increasingly more ridiculous and harder for other people to believe me. i hated the first two times i had to ask my psychiatrist about maybe having bipolar and ADHD, which we ended up confirming me having and having to put it on paper, but now i'm starting to think i may also have borderline (a lot of reasons that i may or may not explain if someone asks), which sucks, i hate having this shit wrong with me so much. plus, it makes me feel like i'm hopping on some 'trend,' it makes me feel like some fuckass kid. i talked with my parents (which was super intimidating to do for reasons why you'll read) and they blew me off and said i was on social media too much. i mean, maybe i am ? but my feed is really just looksminimizing for gits and shiggles. i also hate the part of the internet that glorifies mental disorders because i have so many. whenever i think about the things i have, it makes me want to commit so bad because i feel too fucked to help. it's intimidating and i feel utterly helpless and stupid for being this way. i dont want these. i just want to be normal. that's all i want. i dont want to take these medications. i dont. idk maybe i'm feeling this way because i'm on my period ? i dont know. i dont think i'll do anything anytime soon, but we'll see. maybe i will and i'll get to dissolve my feelings away because i won't be here.
