Venting I have nothing to look forward to but my suicide.

[Largeletters]

I feel like I have nothing. I'm too depressed to leave my house, I spend my days doing worthless shit that won't amount to anything and being in such pain due to my thoughts. I have nothing to look forward to except my suicide.

 

[LastFlowers]

Neither do I, even the suicide itself I'm not exactly looking forward to, it won't be pleasant, the only thing I'm looking forward to about it is that my consciousness of the suffering will come to an end.

 

[Lost Magic]

Same

 

[Largeletters]

Neither do I, even the suicide itself I'm not exactly looking forward to, it won't be pleasant, the only thing I'm looking forward to about it is that my consciousness of the suffering will come to an end.

That too :(

 

[The Lonely]

I understand
I lost the interest in anything… it's being pretty difficult to fool my mind these days…. :/

 

[PrincessInWhite]

I feel like I have nothing. I'm too depressed to leave my house, I spend my days doing worthless shit that won't amount to anything and being in such pain due to my thoughts. I have nothing to look forward to except my suicide.

I feel so similar. I hope so much things turn miraculously around for you. Sending big hugs

 

[The Lonely]

Sending you A hug! :)

 

[Efilismislife]

Neither do I, even the suicide itself I'm not exactly looking forward to, it won't be pleasant, the only thing I'm looking forward to about it is that my consciousness of the suffering will come to an end.

I thought im the only one. Feeling lost. I initially thought it wont be this complicated to ctb. Many methods are complicated either painful/prone to failure/hard to obtain. And N seems impossible to get

i bought phenobarbital and thought that would work..what a pity

 

[boc]

I thought im the only one. Feeling lost. I initially thought it wont be this complicated to ctb. Many methods are complicated either painful/prone to failure/hard to obtain. And N seems impossible to get

i bought phenobarbital and thought that would work..what a pity

What happened after your order? Did it just not arrive? Who did you order from?

 

[BlankUser]

I'm doing worthless shit everyday. Drinking until I black out because it feels like some sort of temporary death.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can relate. I have honestly never wanted to be alive really. Death is the only way for me to find some sort of peace. It is the solution to all of my problems. This existence is exhausting. Whatever happens at least life is only temporary.

 

[SuicideRun]

I am on your side, and so tiring to be behind you have thoughts and a future that does not exist. Every day is an unequal struggle.

 

[Largeletters]

I understand
I lost the interest in anything… it's being pretty difficult to fool my mind these days…. :/

Me too.

I feel so similar. I hope so much things turn miraculously around for you. Sending big hugs

Same for you. Sending big hugs back!

I thought im the only one. Feeling lost. I initially thought it wont be this complicated to ctb. Many methods are complicated either painful/prone to failure/hard to obtain. And N seems impossible to get

i bought phenobarbital and thought that would work..what a pity

I relate. CTB isn't as simple as it seems... I'm sorry you're going through this.

I'm doing worthless shit everyday. Drinking until I black out because it feels like some sort of temporary death.

I'm very sorry. Hoping things turn around for you in some manner, but I know how impossible that can seem. :(

 

[Numbtopain97]

Same

 

[Efilismislife]

What happened after your order? Did it just not arrive? Who did you order from?

No, i bought many but its not N. N=pento(short acting barbiturate) but pheno(long acting barbiturate)turns out it takes hours to kill and i dont have that long time :(
i cant get pento :(

 

[TheYounger]

Same here. I go to work and everything but man every fucking day is a reminder of how badly i want to die.

 

[Lost Magic]

I am, hopefully, getting some kush soon to ease some of the suffering. But, man, I really don't want to wake up most days. This life is just one pointless exercise in futility.