Venting nothing is the same as before

[watashiwastar]

i miss 2022 so much. i was so happy for once, even after trudging through shit in the previous year. i still looked forward to things and could talk to people. i think things are worse now despite things being "better". i feel nothing. i have nothing to look forward to despite people being there for me. i can't talk to the people there for me. i'm too scared to talk to anyone in general. the only way i could look forward to a day was if i was the only person alive, honestly. i can't even be poetic with my vents at this point. i'm just so disappointed by each day and how it pales in comparison to the past.