I have never felt scared about ctb

[Suicideorgy]

This is very long so feel free to just comment about your own struggles or lack there of, of survival instinct, have you ever backed out, etc. its a topic that interests me

I dunno whats up. I have tried partial hanging quite a few times and its never scared me. Albiet it never worked either, positioning is everything and I backout before I crush my windpipe. I couple times I have just dangled there while I felt the pressure in my head and I backed out because it more felt like I was going to survive just have a massive headache afterwards. I havent passed out from partial hanging and I have given up on that method due to its inconsistencies.

I got SN but things are looking slightly better for me but that wont be for long. I know I will feel ok for a few weeks then go spiralling right back down into the deep dark place. The endless void. But its nice knowing when it comes I have something more reliable than a stupid tent rope.

I have been this way for atleast 20 years I like making plans and discussing different methods it brings me some semblance of control and peace in my life. I know when I am ready it will be time. when I was younger a decent method was to use a cars exhaust because you could find old cars without the emissions very easily and they were always cheap. Now not so much. There was also the laundry detergent methods getting constantly posted to 4chan, how to make crystals, etc.

 

[Efilismislife]

If you dont feel scared about dying then it will be easy for you to exit and being free

So the only reason why you dont ctb is because you still wanna live?

Opposite of me. The only reason why i still continue this helpless hellish life is because its hard for me to ctb
(unreachable method/lack of capability, scared of failing messing up painful dying, etc)

 

[FuneralCry]

I have never attempted hanging personally, as that method sounds difficult and risky. It does make hanging seem so much easier than it actually is when you hear about so many people dying from it. My only reason for still being here is because of limited access to methods and fear of the method failing. I can imagine that it must be a relief having the option of SN, I know that for many it can be comforting having a reliable way to exit. No one should have to feel as though they are trapped in this world.