I have everything I need but still unmotivated

[Snake of Eden]

It is not a question if I would like to do it anymore. My heart is set but I think of the trauma my action would cause for my parents that i will leave behind. I think it is best to do it in a hotel to avoid my body being found by family members. My biggest issue is that I am not motivated and even feel lazy to commit the action. I tried everything I can to psyche myself to do it like isolating myself from everyone and visualizing my plan and the details of the last two days how they should be. I am not sure what more to do in order to make myself do it finally. I am not asking for encouragement. I think I am hoping for clarity on when to know the time is right to do it

 

[FuneralCry]

I think for me, a certain level of desperation and hopelessness would be needed for me to overcome the SI and ctb. I will know when it is time. I'm not sure if there is anything you can do, it will just be a feeling. I wish you well.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I think for me, a certain level of desperation and hopelessness would be needed for me to overcome the SI and ctb. I will know when it is time. I'm not sure if there is anything you can do, it will just be a feeling. I wish you well.

Thank you. Thats what I am wondering what is that feeling is like when you know it is time? I thought I did know it but I think I was wrong

 

[FuneralCry]

Thank you. Thats what I am wondering what is that feeling is like when you know it is time? I thought I did know it but I think I was wrong

I think it is a feeling of despair and misery but also a desperate one where you cannot think past the suicidal thoughts. I have experienced it before but I did not go through with it because of my method was not planned fully at the time.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I think it is a feeling of despair and misery but also a desperate one where you cannot think past the suicidal thoughts. I have experienced it before but I did not go through with it because of my method was not planned fully at the time.

I also experienced what you are saying. Causing my family great grief is what is stopping me. Also taking antipsychotics since my method is N