Venting I hate people

[deathisnear]

I hope everyone realizes how much I fucking do for them when I ctb ... I have ALWAYS but everything about myself on the back burner to make sure that others are taken care of all while fighting depression/anxiety etc. Well guess what fuckers, now it's MY TURN, my turn to do what I've always wanted and MY TURN to think about myself for a change when I pull that fuckin trigger later this year or sooner I hope. They have no idea their time is running shorter with me as everyday passes, one day soon I won't be here ... then they can figure shit out by themselves while I get the peace I crave

 

[VicMackey]

I hope everyone realizes how much I fucking do for them when I ctb ... I have ALWAYS but everything about myself on the back burner to make sure that others are taken care of all while fighting depression/anxiety etc. Well guess what fuckers, now it's MY TURN, my turn to do what I've always wanted and MY TURN to think about myself for a change when I pull that fuckin trigger later this year or sooner I hope. They have no idea their time is running shorter with me as everyday passes, one day soon I won't be here ... then they can figure shit out by themselves while I get the peace I crave

Sir......
I feel exactly the way you do.

 

[deathisnear]

Sir......
I feel exactly the way you doI

Sir......
I feel exactly the way you do.

At some point we gotta say enough is enough, fuck em and let's focus on me, it will soon be my time to shine i hope

 

[BeyondGoodNEvil]

i know what you mean op.helping out people but then they never acknowledge helping out you.
Its always best to focus on yourself first .When thats taken care of only then you should consider helping out others.

 

[FuneralCry]

People can cause us a lot of pain and can be exhausting to deal with. I hope you find the peace that you want.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

I feel exactly the same way, OP. I especially feel you about this after the last few days and being either straight up screwed over by one person, or just left behind (again) to watch people I tried so hard to be a friend to this last year and half move forward in their lives and get too busy for me (this is happening often now that the US is getting back to a more pre-pandemic life, while I stay stuck in that same kind of life due to my shitty health and limitations). When I go, I do not intend to leave a note or any kind of communication explaining anything to anyone. My actions will be solely due to my wanting OUT and anyway no one cared or gave enough of a shit to listen to me when I was here, why would they care afterwards? I don't care what they think or how 'confused' by it they are or if they want to know the "why"...I just don't care anymore what they think.

Anyway I understand and empathize with your pain and anger, OP. People really don't care how much you do for them or what you're dealing with to do for and be there for them, as long as they get what they want and aren't inconvenienced in any way. I'm sorry you've had people treat you that way. I wish you peace

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

people suck.