Venting i hate hate hateeeee how depressed I am

[lwovely]

I feel so alone and I think I'll always stay like this forever. People who will try understand me would be disgusted once they figure out the real me. I wish I could fix myself but most importantly i wish I could be someone else.

I hate how depression makes you feel so miserable all day. I am pretty much decaying in bed and wasting time away. It is so difficult to foster valuable relationships or develop happy hobbies.

I am a couple days into recovery and it's so hard to not be pessimistic. It is so hard to pull myself out of this mess. My biggest fear in life is that I will be so deep into this mess that I cannot ask for help anymore. It's so hard to push the sense of helplessness away. I am trying so hard to be normal.

Functioning depression is no joke, I go to work and go out as a normal person but I am barely surviving even tho people think I am fine. I feel like a dark pit of nothing. I've been trying to eat healthy and think clearer but it's is just so hard

Fuck my Baka life yall.

 

[amerie]

You aren't alone in how you feel, but yeah depression is so isolating. It makes you feel like the whole world is collapsing and you still have to function and be apart of it and even worse people say it's all in your head and treat you like shit when you try to explain how you feel.