I guess it's comming to an end

[OldDude]

Hi,
after some years ben here, reading, I guess I'm at the point I finally will finish what I'm thinking about for a long time. Normally my life isn't that bad, having a good job earning good money. But I'm socially isolated and yes I've to admit it's also my fold. Never having friends living mostly by my own my personality changed over the years, becoming more and more frustrated. Having the feeling nobody needs me, not being heard or accepted. Short, a very unlikable person. After a fight on work yesterday, were again, I wasn't deescalating it's now clear for me. I have to leave or I will fail more and more, crashing my life more and more... I failed my life in every way.

Same for the things I'm writing here, at the end it is only self-pity but inside me I know that it's not the others fault. If nobody likes you you're not likable and that's something nobody can really change.

To make this much to long story short, yesterday evening I ordered a 20l bottle of nitrogen and a regulator, they will be delivered end of the week. Only things mussing a tube, a bag and some kind of sealing. That's something I can get on Saturday. Are there any more recommendations for this method?
I choose this method because it is easy to get all the things needed and hope it's pain and panickless as it is stated. I fear a bit that your mind is still panicking even you're past out and the last thoughts are nightmares.

Cheers,
O

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I fear a bit that your mind is still panicking even you're past out and the last thoughts are nightmares.

Unfortunately, no one will ever be able to really tell you what happens at this point. At least not those who are successful.

The only problem I see with this method is exactly what is to stop you from ripping the bag off your head? You won't know how strong your SI is until you're actually going through with this, or any other, method. To counter the SI, one would have to come up with some method to counter the ability to pull the bag off the head. That is, if you really wanted to ctb.

 

[outrider567]

Hi,
after some years ben here, reading, I guess I'm at the point I finally will finish what I'm thinking about for a long time. Normally my life isn't that bad, having a good job earning good money. But I'm socially isolated and yes I've to admit it's also my fold. Never having friends living mostly by my own my personality changed over the years, becoming more and more frustrated. Having the feeling nobody needs me, not being heard or accepted. Short, a very unlikable person. After a fight on work yesterday, were again, I wasn't deescalating it's now clear for me. I have to leave or I will fail more and more, crashing my life more and more... I failed my life in every way.

Same for the things I'm writing here, at the end it is only self-pity but inside me I know that it's not the others fault. If nobody likes you you're not likable and that's something nobody can really change.

To make this much to long story short, yesterday evening I ordered a 20l bottle of nitrogen and a regulator, they will be delivered end of the week. Only things mussing a tube, a bag and some kind of sealing. That's something I can get on Saturday. Are there any more recommendations for this method?
I choose this method because it is easy to get all the things needed and hope it's pain and panickless as it is stated. I fear a bit that your mind is still panicking even you're past out and the last thoughts are nightmares.

Cheers,
O

Inert Gas Megathread has a lot of info---Exit Bag is on page 38 of the thread, 'Doing It With Chi...Making an Exit Bag'---Don't forget to get a Nitrogen Flowmeter, 15 LPM setting, and clear plastic tubing that's firm and fits tightly to the flowmeter---I possess a 'click' flowmeter/nitrogen regulator,the MaxDog one