I got too fucked up

[fastneasyTossout]

What a big let down to open my eyes to see another day. Last night was going to be the night. I spent my last $10 on a bottom shelf whiskey to get drunken enough to suppress SI so I could CTB. Well, I got too drunk and too fucked up I spent the night vomiting and woke up on the floor.. didn't even get a chance to CTB. Fuck.
I wish I could do this CTB thing straight, but I need something to suppress the fear

 

[allblackallwhite]

I'm with ya. I OD'd on fent yesterday. They're not lying about how powerful this stuff is. I was more fucked up than I have ever been in my life. Still pretty fucked up over 24 hours later. I was projectile vomiting everywhere, really shallow breathing, super sweats, and kept passing out. I was actually hoping that would be it. Then I woke up to even more crushing disappointment than usual. Gives me faith for the next time. This one was on a whim, I just got my dope, and not following the whole plan. If I had finished my COGen it likely would have worked.

 

[Hope:-)]

A failed attempt must be awful. I'm sorry you had to experience that guys. Not that I want anyone to pass from suicide, but a failed attempt must be so demoralising. Lots of love xxx

 

[jodes2]

Sorry to hear that. You must have one nasty hangover too

 

[fastneasyTossout]

Sorry to hear that. You must have one nasty hangover too

Yea I called out of work and taking the day off.. probably not good to call off, but fuck it I don't care

 

[FuneralCry]

Ctb really is so difficult after all. I'm sorry that this happened. It certainly should be easier to leave this life behind, we have already suffered enough in life without having to go through failed attempts. Best wishes.