Venting i gazed into the abyss and the abyss pulled me back

[hao☆]

The past year has been a good run, trying to reconstruct my life was a long and arduous progress that i thought would all go smoothly, and it didn't. I looked back and I was sucked back in immediately and lost everything I had built for myself. My family, social life, everything. It's all gone in just a matter of seconds right before my eyes, I am so empty yet i feel so much pain, what kind of cruel existence was i destined to live?

Today was about any day as other, I was even excited and reality came crashing through the door. Even beneath all the smiles and laughs i had put up, all the hard work i commited just to stop living a miserable stupid fucking life all went to waste. Please pray that I can find peace in death.

ps: my darling alex, if u find any of these i wuv u sm to the very end of my pathetic life.

chào <3