Georgiana Darcy
Member
- Feb 11, 2021
- 64
Finally, I managed to order SN. I am currently in a hospital far away from my home town, but will have it sent to my home address. It is too risky sending it to the hospital, getting caught, and being sent to a psychiatric ward against my will. And forced to take antidepressants or antipsychotics against my will. I have no idea if the package looks suspicious from the outside (having toxic product warning on the package), or looks neutral and will pass the reception desk of the hospital.
Normally, neighbors pick up my mail. But I might be away for another couple of weeks.
I am scared that:
1, There will be problems with customs
2, The package will NOT be deposited with neighbours, but at the postal office (which will send it back within 7 days)
3, My neighbours will not keep it laying around for a couple of weeks
But it would be so wonderful to come back to my hometown and salvation awaits me.... Then I can finally say goodbye and am not forced to continue living this horrible life. Whenever I want, at any day of my choosing.
Everything I loved, everything that was important to me is gone: research, friends, a career, traveling, being able to afford nice things, my dad - everything, everything is destroyed. Away, away, away. My life is over. I have been fighting to get it back for a decade, but in vain.
Please, please wish me luck that the SN arrives safely at my home address and neighbours will keep it save for weeks while I am gone. I just wish to leave this miserable world and finally find peace.
Normally, neighbors pick up my mail. But I might be away for another couple of weeks.
I am scared that:
1, There will be problems with customs
2, The package will NOT be deposited with neighbours, but at the postal office (which will send it back within 7 days)
3, My neighbours will not keep it laying around for a couple of weeks
But it would be so wonderful to come back to my hometown and salvation awaits me.... Then I can finally say goodbye and am not forced to continue living this horrible life. Whenever I want, at any day of my choosing.
Everything I loved, everything that was important to me is gone: research, friends, a career, traveling, being able to afford nice things, my dad - everything, everything is destroyed. Away, away, away. My life is over. I have been fighting to get it back for a decade, but in vain.
Please, please wish me luck that the SN arrives safely at my home address and neighbours will keep it save for weeks while I am gone. I just wish to leave this miserable world and finally find peace.
