Venting I feel very scared

[gatto]

Hi everyone!! Hum I think that I'll finally ctb tomorrow!! As I live with my parents, I will take my bike and find a calm place where I'll take 20mg of metoclopramide and 20g of sn (with around 200ml of water) and wait for the end. I'm kinda scared and I would love some support and I want to be sure that it's a good idea ! I love you all !!

 

[madscotsman]

I'm here, I don't think anyone is going to tell you it's a good idea or encourage you to do it, that would be having a hand in the matter, but I and everyone else on here it seems is here for eachother you included. What are you wanting support with right now?

 

[gatto]

I'm here, I don't think anyone is going to tell you it's a good idea or encourage you to do it, that would be having a hand in the matter, but I and everyone else on here it seems is here for eachother you included. What are you wanting support with right now?

I wanted someone to tell me that it is a good idea sorry about that eheh!

 

[i_was_here]

Hi everyone!! Hum I think that I'll finally ctb tomorrow!! As I live with my parents, I will take my bike and find a calm place where I'll take 20mg of metoclopramide and 20g of sn (with around 200ml of water) and wait for the end. I'm kinda scared and I would love some support and I want to be sure that it's a good idea ! I love you all !!

im sorry you reached that point, whatever you decide, i hope you find peace! <3

 

[madscotsman]

I wanted someone to tell me that it is a good idea sorry about that eheh!

Well, if I was being more logical and hypothetical, there is many good reasons for someone to take their own life and it could even be called a good solution to a multitude of problems. If you're asking if you are right in wanting to kill yourself then I can't claim to know anything about you or how you struggle so I cannot say you are not in the right. I believe I'm in the right for my decision, no one will convince me I'm not. You decide, as its only your decision that matters. It will play the biggest role on if you do it or not, you decide no one else.

 

[gatto]

Well, if I was being more logical and hypothetical, there is many good reasons for someone to take their own life and it could even be called a good solution to a multitude of problems. If you're asking if you are right in wanting to kill yourself then I can't claim to know anything about you or how you struggle so I cannot say you are not in the right. I believe I'm in the right for my decision, no one will convince me I'm not. You decide, as its only your decision that matters. It will play the biggest role on if you do it or not, you decide no one else.

You're right! But sometimes you need a little help, someone that go through this with you and who helps you make this decision a reality because it's very difficult to go through this alone.. Anyway! Gonna sleep rn , it's already 4am here eheh!! Thanks for your time!

 

[j.rez729]

Good luck! I'm not encouraging you nor am I discouraging you, but I hope if you do make the jump that it's not painful. And if you back out that's ok too, sometimes the timing is off. I log on here mainly to get method ideas. So....20mg of metoclopramide and 20g of sn, is that a typical successful concoction? Is sn sodium nitrite? Sorry if that's obvious but I'm fairly new to this site. Is it like a salt that you mix with something?

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Hope you find the answer you are looking for, whether it is a good idea for you and may you find peace in your decision. Wishing you all the best.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.