
CatAstro.Fee
confused
- Jul 5, 2025
- 10
I am disassociated all the time and everything feels like a dream I guess. It's so hard to explain. When I stop doomscrolling and being on the internet, I still feel that way and even worse. I don't really feel things or hear either. Like I do, but it's muted? I don't know how to feel like I am here again, it was a coping mechanism I used a couple years ago to cope, I would daydream constantly, and now I'm just stuck like this.
When I have social interactions it feels strange. The fun things I do or people I hangout with end quickly, I genuinely feel like everything I ever experienced happened yesterday.
Everything now is just like. I don't know. Like I'm in the screen, like I am the action I am doing, I am the surroundings I'm looking at. I hate it so much. I wish I learned a long time ago how to stop because it made it hard to enjoy my time with my partner when we were together, and it made the years go by ridiculously, like seriously it doesn't seem fair or right that the year passed so quickly, but during that time it felt like it would never end.
I don't know how to stop. People say to breathe and all that, it hasn't helped. I don't know what to do. I just want to feel real and alive again. I forgot what that feels like. I don't remember what I used to feel like. Maybe I was always unconscious and there's no real way to feel real..?
When I have social interactions it feels strange. The fun things I do or people I hangout with end quickly, I genuinely feel like everything I ever experienced happened yesterday.
Everything now is just like. I don't know. Like I'm in the screen, like I am the action I am doing, I am the surroundings I'm looking at. I hate it so much. I wish I learned a long time ago how to stop because it made it hard to enjoy my time with my partner when we were together, and it made the years go by ridiculously, like seriously it doesn't seem fair or right that the year passed so quickly, but during that time it felt like it would never end.
I don't know how to stop. People say to breathe and all that, it hasn't helped. I don't know what to do. I just want to feel real and alive again. I forgot what that feels like. I don't remember what I used to feel like. Maybe I was always unconscious and there's no real way to feel real..?