I feel so stuck

[oldfritos]

Like I don't want to die, theres so many things that could go wrong. like if I survive and my family has to pay for all my medical bills and having to live as a vegetable for the rest of time. But I also don't want to exist. I have no drive to do any of the things that are essentially required in this day and age. Like for example, I don't have any job I really want that pays well enough for where the economy is. And even if I did want a job like that I would have to go to college, which is a supreme waste of time and money. And if I were to keep on living my family would force me to go to college. I really don't feel like theres anything that can fix it all. Cause on top of all the things I've listed I also have many mental illnesses, the world, both politically and climate-wise, is falling apart, and I have literally 0 friends. It feels like the only logical option in my case is to CTB. Thoughts, advice, anything?

 

[The anhedonic one]

So sorry you are going through this.
Going to college in this day and age is a waste if time. Artificial intelligence is putting people out of work on a grand scale.
I would just get any job you can for now and move away from your parents who are trying to force you into a life that they think is best for you.
What do you have to lose ?