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PaxAmerica

PaxAmerica

Just Passing
Apr 15, 2021
202
I feel so lost these days. I hate getting up. The only good times are when I am asleep. My life has been so horrible. Not the worst. I know there are worse life out there. But still not nice. People bullying me, so much bad luck. Family members picking on me. Fate has been so bad. I dont want to die but I really dont enjoy living. And the pain from mistakes I have made are the worst. But no one ever tried to really help me. I would go out my way for others. Maybe I was just a sucker.
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
904
I'm so sorry. I'm sure there are lives worse than mine out there too but people react different to situations and experiences. Every mind works different. Hope your life get better. I find it too difficult to enjoy it these days but I try.
 
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Lostandlooking

In limbo
Jul 23, 2020
489
I'm sorry life has been so horrible. You don't deserve to be bullied, you deserve good things to happen to you. I believe you need good experiences in life to gain confidence and to prosper. It's very hard to get anywhere when life keeps knocking you down. I'm also somewhere in the middle. I don't want to die, but I don't exactly want to live either. Sending you hugs :hug:
 
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deletednumber

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,603
I understand you very well ... I also feel really lost and abandoned to myself, trapped ...no one ever tried to really help me too...what a desperate feeling...i know:(
 
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Largeletters

Alone
Jan 21, 2020
640
I know what you mean. I've felt worse about life than usual (and that's saying a lot as I always have negative thoughts towards this life) and I dread nighttime every day as it means I have to get up the next day and repeat. Repeat, repeat, repeat. I hate it. There's no purpose of it, yet I'm still here. Why?
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,667
I can relate, I do not have the energy for this life, and I spend most of my days just looking forward to sleep. I ask myself 'why am I still here'. Life can be cruel and painful, I get that. I have experienced lots of bad luck too.
 
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