I feel so guilty for leaving my father behind

[jj83]

I'm 37 and I live with my father. I feel so guilty leaving him behind, especially since my mother passed away in November. It seems cruel for me to do this to him. I hope he will find peace with it.

 

[Hepi]

I understand you very well, because I have this problem myself. My parents are alive, I'm an only child, they don't have a secure financial future (it's complicated) and I feel very bad about that, especially towards my mother. I know it will destroy them psychologically because they have no support in anyone else. On the other hand I want to break free and find peace at last. I deserve something too

My parents are the only thread that keeps me on earth.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yeah, it is normal to feel like that and it is understandable. Suicide is an pain cycle, to end our own pain it passes it on to other people. I would never suffer for the sake of others and I would always put myself first, but I know it can be hard. I personally plan to write a note which I hope will give some closure, saying 'theres nothing you could have done' and 'now I am at peace'.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

Right, just keep in mind that he's the one who brought you into this world without your consent.
Parents don't deserve pity.

 

[WornOutLife]

Same here.
My dad and dog are the only reason why I'm still living on this goddamn blue rock.