Venting I feel so disconnected

[Enigma25]

I feel so disconnected from everything. I refuse to hold the belief that I am better since I am different, but I wish I understood how others can dive into work. Become Passionate about work. etc.. People make friends at work easily too. I can't, but also cause I don't find anything "normal"/average interesting. Work isn't fun/funny to me. I don't want to talk about it. I see these people everyday, and I know nothing about them and they me, but I also know it's partly my fault. People don't like non surface level conversations around here at least. I can't contribute anything except jokes anyway, since I'm admittedly a little slow. I keep going through the day reinforcing my belief that I don't belong or fit in anywhere. I am not looking forward to waking up

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I resonate with some of what you've said. I also feel like making friends is difficult for me. In the chat I say enough to keep my head above water, and that doesn't earn me any friends. I always feel like I want to say something but nothing is coming out. It's like I'm choking over and over again. As for my passions, there's nothing out there I'm passionate about besides sculpting which I cannot do, so. I don't work, I'm on disability, but when I did work I was not passionate about it. I did housekeeping for a year. I also feel a little slow and that's why I can't contribute. You're not alone in feeling like you don't belong anywhere or fit in.

 

[Enigma25]

Yeah, I don't know. I don't know how to bond over things. I don't find excitement in football (I have controversial opinions on sports in general). I just don't think like anyone. I am proud that humanity is so diverse, and disappointed that I am waaaaaay different still. I'm ready to end it, but no one seems to know anything about obtaining a method to pass peacefully